I need to talk about this because I’m still processing it.

I’ve been tracking my mood daily for about four months. Two weeks ago I noticed something. Every time I marked a really low day - the 2s and 3s - there was a common thread. It was always after an interaction with the same person.

My best friend. The person I considered my closest relationship.

Going back through entries, the pattern is undeniable. After hanging out with her, I feel drained, anxious, not good enough. She makes subtle comments that I brush off in the moment but they show up in my journal as “why did she say that” and “am I overreacting or was that mean.”

I never would have seen this without the data. In person, I just thought I was being sensitive. But the journal doesn’t lie.

Now I have to figure out what to do with this information and I’m kind of lost.

Has journaling revealed something about a relationship you didn’t want to see?