Nadya, let’s call her, this girl I liked, became somewhat attached to me and would spend a lot of time with me. She made a joke that I was her husband and that we should get married and live together, which I took as just that: a joke.

We started to hang out more, Nadya would compliment me a lot (I’d do likewise) and we’d help each other with work, but we could never hang out because she had sports. When i was 14, I realized one night I couldn’t stop thinking about her and even had a dream about her. I suddenly found her pretty as hell.

I started questioning whether or not I liked her, and later realized, “Of course I do!”. I also realized she always seemed to treat me slightly differently than others, but I didn’t know if it was because of my autism that everyone bullied me for or because of another reason. She would be very flirty and touchy with most people, for example, but never me. She would smack their butts and call them “hubby” and “wifey”.

She would sometimes be moody, somehow forget when I had partners in the past (she forgot I had a boyfriend), and get especially moody on the subject of romance. I also realized even though she was sad when I broke up with him, she started to compliment me more and be nice after the fact.

She eventually sided with the bullies though and agreed that I was being a creepy stalker, but on the last day of last school year, apologized, smiled at me, and we made up again.

This was a WHILE ago, by the way.