I’m a transmasc demiboy, but I don’t really like to present myself very masculine. I still love wearing skirts, I like painting my nails, even wearing light makeup.
I’m not happy about the idea of having facial hair or a deeper voice, which is why I have not yet started HRT, even though I’ll probably need to in some capacity since I do want phalloplasty in the future.
I also have no desire for top surgery since I don’t want to lose sensation in my nipples, and I don’t want to have scars on my chest. They don’t bother me anyway, they’re small (about an A cup). Just about the only masculine thing I do is that I cut my hair short, not super short, but still shorter than what would be considered feminine.
Is this normal? Does anyone else have similar experiences? I’ve been told I don’t act enough like a boy and that I need to be more masculine.
Speaking directly to your point, I was hanging around a transmasc thread once where i recall a dude was confused as they were feeling dysphoria from the test being too effective. They were getting “too rock hard and beardy and short-tempered”. They man they wanted to be was “the cool little funny dude not a wolverine beef boi” and i hope that’s where they’re at now