My fucking Brain. I have severe ADHD, and difficulty understanding concepts that are even more than a little complex. I forget stuff so easily. I fucking hate it so much, it is massively fucking frustrating.

I have passion, time and a want to be better. But changing myself is like walking barefoot through a narrow corridor, shoulder wide and full of glass shards on both the walls and the ground. All the while I keep forgetting where the exit is, even as it is right infront of me. Things that should take normal people a day to do, takes me more than a month. I hate it, I hate that it takes me so much time. And only fear drives me to do things, WHY? Why can’t it be something that I want to do instead of fucking fear. I fucking hate that. It’s like my brain has some bottleneck that just can’t be gotten rid of.

If I weren’t lucky with my circumstances, I would have killed myself.