Why does it have to be me? I try to be kind to others, I try to be there for them and friendly, and because of my autism, I get nothing but cruelty for it.

They’re very nice, kind, and accepting and believe in rights for everyone, but that’s only if the person isn’t autistic. They think you should be free to express your opinion and be like a normal person but only if you’re not autistic. You’re not even worthy of rights or kindness if you are. You’re like a small child or an animal. They treat you much, much, differently. They say they’ve always wanted to hurt you but all you are to them is autistic and they can’t hurt an autistic person without being “shunned”, so to speak.

My friend is autistic. A guy, much less awkward than I am, doesn’t have social anxiety. He’s treated with so much kindness even by those people.

Why does he get treated well and I don’t?? Is it because of my social anxiety?? Is it because I’m a woman with autism?

It seems even the “kindest” of people give me crap because of a trait that does not even define me as a person.

It says much more about them than it does me that they choose to treat me this way because of it.

I woke up very early, shaking because of what I talked about yesterday.

  • Aurora@lemmy.ml
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    2 days ago

    Discrimination, I guess. They need some sort of punching bag or scapegoat. What you see is the real them, what others see is a sort of mask. A lot of women (like the one in your previous post) will be kinder towards men than towards their own gender, so they may be very kind or even fawn over your friend, a guy, but treat you terribly.

    Her getting mad at you and asking why you like her reads like possible neglect/abuse. If they treat you badly for being kind, they could not be used to the kindness. Remember that this is just speculation as I don’t know this person nor their home life.