• Seagoon_@aussie.zone
    17·
    17 days ago

    WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT.

    I just passed my Learners . It’s been a while since I’ve driven so I thought I should take the tests and lessons again.

    I got two wrong but it was just being overly cautious 😬

    🍻

  • Gibsonhasafluffybutt@aussie.zoneEnglish
    14·
    17 days ago

    During my sobriety I’ve been taking something called suboxone. You could liken it to an opiate blocker, though it does have a degree of a sedative effect.

    This becomes unnoticeable after a while.

    2 months ago I decided to stop taking it, as it was no longer required.

    And so it turns out the mild sedation was not so mild at all. I was emotionally numb to a degree that I had forgotten what either positive or negative really felt like.

    It has been tough. I have no desire to return to my old life, I have no cravings. I’ve had a constant underlying headache from various parts of my body being incredibly tense since the beginning.

    But coming back into the world full of feelings and a nervous system that’s been half asleep for a decade has been really, really hard. Everything feels so intense, both emotionally and physically.

    I love it. But it’s hard work. I’m stuck in this “reconfiguration” stage and I think I’ve mindlessly said “man, today has been a hard day” every day for a few weeks now.

    I’ve played the best music I’ve probably played in my life over the last 2 months. I feel like myself. I’m excited. But it’s a struggle. Were I not already somewhat used to dealing with stuff like this by myself, I think I would have run back to the medicine.

    No one I know in real life knows about what’s happening. I just needed to get it out of my system.

    Thanks for listening.

    /vent

    • Duenan@aussie.zone
      7·
      17 days ago

      If you’ve through a lot but I’ve also had the fortitude to get through it.

      You’re a good person and deserve everything that life has to offer.

    • Bottom_racer@aussie.zone
      7·
      17 days ago

      It’s an incredibly hard thing you’ve gone through.

      We’re here for you man, always. you’re a kind soul and don’t forget that.

    • Seagoon_@aussie.zone
      6·
      17 days ago

      So many hugs. You’re incredibly brave and strong, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. ( and good too. )

    • StudSpud The Starchy@aussie.zoneEnglish
      6·
      17 days ago

      I’m so proud of you friend, all you have survived, your willpower and perseverance is inspiring. You’re the kindest most thoughtful person I’ve the honour of knowing. Whatever happens I know you’re going to pull through and be that much more stronger for it!

    • SituationCake@aussie.zone
      3·
      17 days ago

      Brains are amazing at recovering and reconfiguring. It will get easier. You’ve done so many hard things, and come through it. We are here for the vents any time you need it!

    • LowExperience2368@aussie.zone
      3·
      17 days ago

      I AM SO PROUD OF YOU MATE

      I hope that soon you can be desensitised to all the reconfiguration stuff and that nasty constant headache fucks off

    • tombruzzo@aussie.zone
      2·
      17 days ago

      I feel like people don’t understand the impact medication has when it flattens everything out. Drugs may get rid of the lows, but they also shave off all the highs and that can take quite a toll on you

  • tone212_@aussie.zone
    12·
    17 days ago

    Back from daily vitamin D exposure. The sun is glorious with light winds too, perfect winter’s day. Vibes are high for Friday arvo.

  • Rusty Raven @aussie.zoneM
    11·
    17 days ago
    Bedroom light shade is up

    It was in lots of flat pieces of plastic that had to be bent and attached together so it took a while, but I’m pleased with the result. I just need to get to the assembly of the bedside tables and the bedroom will be done.

  • imoldgreeeg@aussie.zone
    10·
    17 days ago

    I had a fever dream that nuclear war happened in the middle east and the whole world economic order basically collapsed so I jumped in my car and drove north and moved in with a family member, earning keep by cooking and cleaning and making money by painting giant paintings of wolves.

    As fever dreams go, it was ok

    • Seagoon_@aussie.zone
      4·
      17 days ago

      may I go political?

      spoiler

      That stupid FUCKING FUCK HEAD TRUMP ripping up the JCPOA

      he has reverse diplomatic skills, his arrogant arseholeship insulted Iran, who while they might be cunts in regard to human rights and corruption, still have an impressive history and have autonomy that should be respected

      • imoldgreeeg@aussie.zone
        3·
        17 days ago

        100%. It’s the utter stupidity of it all.

        You are welcome to ride dream-shotgun in my trip to a quiet future out bush painting and chilling with wolves.

  • imoldgreeeg@aussie.zone
    8·
    17 days ago

    Am sick 🤢. In hindsight having to google the number of days in a year yesterday should have been a giveaway. throat feels like hell. Back to bed I guess.

  • SpinMeAround@aussie.zone
    8·
    17 days ago

    My body is sore in a good way (from workouts), it’s a sunny Friday and I’m WFH, I had a full night’s sleep… so why am I feeling like a grump this morning? REA inspection maybe? A creaky bra that sounds like a fuckin’ old ship? Just the cold in general? Gahhhh. I think I need some chocolate. Ohhh I think I’m hungry.

  • CEOofmyhouse56@aussie.zone
    8·
    17 days ago

    Tomorrow for the Winter Solstice Games I have lots of wood, potatoes, marshmallows and chestnuts. What else do I need or need to do? Poetry? Spells? Chanting? Nudity?

  • Bottom_racer@aussie.zone
    8·
    17 days ago

    Would never have thought as a kid I’d some day be excited to wake up early and appraise the damage the new cheapo weed burner has inflicted from the day before.

    It’s very relaxing for some reason.

    Also the new ICU at st. vincents is very impressive. the ones I’ve been to before are depressing af, but that one has a huge amount of space (and less noise) which is way less confronting for patients. ol’ girl was complaining about being bored and not annoyed which is good.

  • Gibsonhasafluffybutt@aussie.zoneEnglish
    7·
    17 days ago

    Have been out of the gym for 2 months-ish. There was a huge billing issue and I couldn’t be fucked dealing with it.

    All sorted now.

    Straight there after work. Bring on the happy chemicals.

    Edit: Apparently there’s been a huge data breach of Google, Apple, Facebook etc passwords.

  • Duenan@aussie.zone
    7·
    17 days ago

    I forgot to post the results of dinner last night.

    I may have put way too much chicken. The pot is overflowing with sauce and chicken and the bacon I added.

    I was expecting the bacon to be salty but it didn’t really come out overpowering.

    Also I think the Aldi sauce I used had a lot of garlic in it but it’s back to its tasty best.

    Felt like the quality had dropped over the last couple of months.