I’m 17F, one year away from being kicked out of my parent’s house. As soon as I’m 18 they’re forcing me to go to a 4 year college. As of now I’m regretting my life decisions. My backup plan is to purse electrical engineering, but I don’t have any experience behind me. All the classes I’ve taken in high school don’t even count towards it. Also, there is no engineering STEM programs at my school either.

My parents ridicule me on how I’m not doing anything in life. I don’t participate in academic stuff. I have no extra curriculars, no sports, no nothing. Yeah, I guess there’s something wrong with that. I mean all I do is go home, school work, watch anime, or practice making music. From 3 to 9 P.M is all the free time I have. And at this point, I don’t really focus on school anyone. I’m running behind on assignments and haven’t done much of them since second semester started.

Firstly, I don’t really wanna go to college. It’s a big scam in the US, and I don’t have any money to move to another country and try to get an education there. It’s like hell in the US. If you’re poor, you’re most likely stuck there for a very long time.

I don’t wanna pursue a skill or a trade, I don’t want a white collar job nor desire to be wealthy. I actually plan on becoming a digital nomad that travels to many places. I don’t want to settle in one place. The thought of being in an office sitting on my ass all day is dreadful, and the thought of working in the same building until retirement is dreadful. I don’t wanna work the usual 9 to 5 in the same boring office building, and I don’t wanna wait until I get those two weeks off a year or less. I also don’t want to make traveling a career, because I hate making a “job” out of something fun. All I wanna do is have fun. I hate the word “work.” I like to focus on something worthwhile, not help produce something I don’t even have control over so my boss can fill their pockets. Yeah I’ll be doing that with remote work, but the only reason I want to do remote work is to have more free time.

Oh well! Why don’t I suck it up? Why don’t I accept this life? Well I don’t want to. I don’t want to be someone I’m not. I don’t want to live a lie. I don’t ask for much, I just want to be free, that’s all. This world is so fucking large, why not explore it? It’s an open world!