My life is so boring and not in the stable and healthy way.

I know sex isn’t all that a lot of the time. It doesn’t exactly lead you anywhere.

I’d rather not have people think I’m a slut. And expose myself to people too soon but I’m bored and sometimes miss it. I feel bad for having these thoughts and desires and like I’m bringing shame to the family.

Maybe I should’ve just gotten married to that idiot…

He never made me cum though. But ig I could’ve gotten with the gardener lol.