i gave her away
i dont know where she is
i was scared to ask questions , to explain. I thought if i will he will get scared and not take her. i thought i had to take the risk. he just needs to fall in love.
he said his family has pets so i thought he knows how to deal with them.
ones again I *ucked someone over because i was too shy to say something
and now god knows where she is
she tore his window net and was gone
he’s not very communicative. I talk to him and forget to ask questions. im so *tupid i swear i *ate myself so much.
and shes on the street, probably *njured.
before I knew what happened I was in my bed before sleep
and I felt this sudden sensation of deep calmness like i took a pill and it had immediate reaction.
after few days in bed too I felt her around me in my bed, as if it was real, with sounds touch and everything. i asked my mom if she got in my room when i was asleep, because i didnt open my eyes when it happened, because it felt so real.
so now i think that the moment of calmness was when she escaped\ *ied. and that she came to me as a ghost.
maybe its just my head creating a story to help me deal with it.
he lives an hour bus drive from me
if hes not lying
i looked for her yesterday
i’ll go again tomorow
*ucking *uck
