I lost my sweetest baby to cardiac arrest. When I first got her as a kitten, she used to suckle on my. She is gone. I went abroad to study and come home once a year - the last time I felt her was last year. I couldn’t wait to come home but I never realized that a part of it was missing already. She was only 5. How can such a small heart be attacked? There were no signs, no symptoms, nothing at all. She’s gone forever. I can’t see her anymore. I can’t feed her from my hands anymore. I can’t touch her. I will never be bunny kicked by her anymore. I can’t smell her. I will never feel her warmth anymore. I still cannot believe that she is gone, it’s not possible. I want to be woken up from this nightmare. I never once imagined I would talk about her in past tense but here I am - I have forever lost her. Everything new I wanted to do with her will now forever remain a wish - a wish that will never come true.

Rest in peace, my sweet summer child. You were my baby and will forever be.