This has been a humbling, traumatic experience and I am forever changed.

4213 resume submissions

Over a 1000 automated rejections

11 Final Round Interviews

35 1st Round Interviews

12 Contract Roles

2 Side Jobs

1 Straight Commission Role

1 Paid Fellowship

This market is horrific. If anyone tells you otherwise they are lying. But FINALLY - today after dealing with HireRights horrible background check experience I’ve finally made it and have successfully pivoted into new industry and into a role with a very well known social platform.

Six figures, health care, all of it. And it’s remote 🥲

NOW I don’t want to offend anyone when I say this but God, the ancestors, my brother, my three best friends from college, therapy, medication for depression, working out, meditation, and prayer every single day are the only things that kept me from ending my life…even when I almost did fr fr

I’ve dealt with the deepest of dark thoughts, had a lot “friends” disappear because I couldn’t be the hook up anymore, moved back to my hometown to start over, lost loved ones with no outlet to grieve, and truly felt so bad about myself in ways that truly have hurt my sense of self. I’ve been on a mission to get ME back since July of last year. And it’s all because I felt like a loser with no stability and no way to pay my bills like a grown up.

I can’t wait to climb out of debt lol.

I say all of this to say…Please do not let anyone gas light you…this market is asine. But do not give up. Try everything. Don’t be too good to crawl and walk all over again. And if you have a practice that gives you peace…dive into that with all your might.

I’ve been crying since I got the news an hour ago.

It feels good…but this job market shit is truly fucked up.