My best friend Oliver is only 9 years young. I noticed after his coat was looking a bit rough and he was getting thinner, I thought hyperthyroidism and old age. I took him to get seen, and the vet also said probably hyperthyroidism. It came back after blood and urine, that it was diabetes, but also noticed a mass in his stomach. I was a mess all week until his appointment today, which only got worse. His cancer is one tumor covering a large part of his liver, and another on a lymphnod. They sent me home with that news. I have noticed over the last week he seems not himself, which I thought was the diabetes. His levels were apparently high, but not enough for insulin. He stopped coming for cuddles, meowing loudly while bringing a toy, or giving me kisses in the morning. He’s like a dog in a cats body. Now he sits and stares. And if I pet him too long (which doesn’t seem like long) he gets up and moves. They can’t tell me if he’s acting this way because of the diabetes or the cancer. I am a wreck. Can’t stop crying. I can’t sit here and watch him wither away while I’m perfectly healthy. I can’t watch my best friend go. Everyone tells me I’ll be fine, but he won’t be. He’s the one losing a life.

I called back and asked for some insulin and pain meds. He got gabapentin and canaslin. His levels are 26.1 which are apparently high? But my vet said that diet alone should fix this but I didn’t feel comfortable trying to accomplish that on my own. Now I don’t know if jabbing him twice a day is just torture or if this is worth trying to help him feel normal, IF the diabetes are what are making him feel bad.

Surgery they said would be 6-10 grand and they would have to refer me to see if it’s even operable. Probably not in his best interest.

Before I even took him in he seemed fine. When I found out he was sick, I gave him so many treats and food which I now regret, and wonder if that’s what’s causing the pain.

I feel like the vets didn’t give me a good plan afterwards of what to do. They got me to buy proplan diet food, which I returned and got orijen kibble (I know kibble isn’t good but orijen is low carb high protine. And some good wet cat foods. I don’t know what to do. I can’t sit around watching him get sicker. He’s literaly my best friend. I don’t have friends. I hang out with my kitties and game. I just lost another one to kidney about 6 months ago. She was 17.

I guess I’m just making a post because I have nothing else to do to help me cope. I’m an alcoholic of 13 years, in recovery for 5 months and I don’t want to relapse.