I had a cat that quit eating as much and was salivating Tucker and thought it was just a general dental disease. We took her in a week and a half ago to get the surgery and to clean the teeth and they found a giant mast underneath her tongue. They took a biopsy and of course it was cancer she is now starting to peel and his be behaving normal and it is making it so much harder knowing that I’m just gonna have to put her down soon. She is literally the most unique cat I’ve ever met we have only had her for two years but the connection is like she was here in my whole life. I have a history of not handling things all too well and I don’t want to go back to those old way, I am just having a hard time not spiraling and I want her to know only happiness before she goes I don’t want her feel only sadness at the end. I know we got some time and I should just be thankful for any of the time she gave us and what we had left but it’s just so hard.

I just wish this world was not so fucking mean and unfair, I always thought about how long she would live as even at 12 years old jumps up on high counters without issues runs around acts like a actual kitten, she only has love for everything and anything. Thank you for reading and any help would be amazing as I just want her to have the best time ever until that time comes.