I am devastated every day since I’ve lost them.

I’ve lost all of them one by one.

I’ve never experienced such pain.

Their sweet mom (stray) gave birth into our garden. We cared so much for them, fed them, cleaned them, gave them meds when needed. Took them to the vet. So many adoption posts. We even spayed the mom.

Nothing could have prevented parvo. When the signs came it was too late.

The vet said they all had parvo, including other strays that came to eat into our garden. It was devastating waiting for their time to come.

Last picture, he died because of a birth defect, he was too small and didn’t grow. He died into my arms.

The big tuxedo cat died of FIP and the vet said there was nothing to be done.

Eventually, last one to die was the mother. I cuddled her until she took her last breath.

I will never forgive myself as I always feel like I haven’t done enough and the pain will never go away