So I’m going to Portugal to visit my Dad at the end of May and I’m TERRIFIED of leaving my girl. We lost her twin sister Binky in October, and I nearly lost Lilly as well as she was diagnosed with RCM as a result of several tests, and collapses, breathing difficulties and chest drains. It was all so difficult and traumatic to see. She’s doing well now on her medications and I haven’t seen my dad properly since Binkys diagnosis in August, so I made the decision to go and see him for a week whilst Lilly’s good… but I’m terrified. She’s had Binky for her whole life and I know how fast things can change from last years events and I suffer so badly with anxiety as it is and have been very poorly since losing Binks. I am giving my mum medication lessons and will be creating a daily chart with each dose written so she can tick them off so I know she’s taken everything including taking her breathing rate. I found a cuddly toy cat online too which has a heartbeat and a purr which you can turn on for 8 hour stints, mum will be coming to feed, do meds and cuddles, and I’m going to ask my neighbour to also pop in so she’s got as much company as possible. I’ll FaceTime her so she’s can hear my voice and see me so she knows I’ve not disappeared. Can any one else please offer any ideas or reassurance? I know it will be so good for me to get away but i don’t want her to feel alone or frightened.

Thank you in advance :) x