I’m curious because I noticed the medication I’m currently on helps me emotionally regulate myself but doesn’t prevent me from thinking about how it still sucks.

I’m trying my damndest to reframe how I think about things. God is it hard though 😮‍💨

  • Red_Eclipse [she/her]@hexbear.net
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    1 year ago

    Yes, I do, so badly in fact that I was nearly mute as a child out of fear of offending someone or being judged negatively. Ironically, my quietness serves me well so that I don’t blurt things out, and the less I say and do, the less enemies I have, which means I am generally liked by people. As an adult it’s better than it was but my body compulsively reacts if I get any negative response to anything and I can’t help it. Like my stomach just drops if I get like, a negative comment or if someone seems annoyed. I just have to remember that my body does these things, and it doesn’t mean it’s the end of the world. If I acknowledge it and move on instead of ruminating, it usually fades away quick enough.

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      Yeah this has to be rooted in my childhood as well

      I have distinct memories of begging my dad not to ask the wal mart associate where something was because there was a chance they could say “No”

      It has also destroyed some of my relationships because I get pretty defensive in response to some pretty innocuous questions