feeling stuck my whole life. its like i need always have the feeling to rest for a long time, but i cant gain energy back while sleeping. i just dont have energy at all. just doing work to barely survive. and this pattern never stops. time runs by, im getting older and i dont even look back and think “i should have done this or that”, cause i know i never got the energy even if i wanted. and for shure i would be more active and positive if i wouldnt feel like a stone the whole time. life sucks, but somehow its going on
Random idea if possible: get a sleep study? If you’ve got apnea, sleep will never rejuvenate you. If you live in the bad place and have to pay big $$ for a sleep study, set up your phone to do a low light recording of your sleep. Play it back, and if you hear yourself pausing breathing… Bingo.
Depression is a real bitch. If you haven’t already, try some different medications. They may not work, but they will make things interesting
