I’m in a similar boat. I have nothing but respect for the people of the DPRK. I think living there or China would be amazing. That being said I think I’d be too ashamed to try and live in NK. Like I know I wasn’t even born when the US massacred them and have nothing to do with how our country continues to fuck them over, but I just can’t get over it. Like every day I’d feel like I should just apologize to someone. That and idk how I could even contribute to their society. There’s nothing I feel I could do that someone in their country couldn’t do just as well or better. I honestly feels that way I couldn’t go to China either. I just have nothing that makes me stand out to be truly worth it other than just wanting to live and work peaceful.