I dont mean depression or anxiety (this feels different), I mean feeling like you never really recharge, like youve never gotten time off ever. Which I think is partly due to a tendency to put literally 100% into something until you feel fried, move on to the next thing rinse repeat. Even “down time” doesnt really feel like down time because I am stuck between either boredom, working on yet another thing or thinking about things in general.
It’s definitely something I’ve been thinking about. It’s just daunting, especially when you’re in your 40s. My dad followed a similar path. Was an electrical engineer working on NASA stuff, hated it, became a carpenter.
I’ve been thinking of things that are programming-adjacent too, like technical writing.