I finished my journal. I’m remembering all of the things that have happened these past 6 months, what I’ve done, what’s changed, how long ago some of these things feel. Just 7 months ago, I thought I was for all intents and purposes cis. That’s not that long, and yet it feels like it’s just a memory, and a distant one at that. I’m going to start another journal, that much is certain, but it’ll be strange to start from what will feel like the beginning. It felt strange reaching what felt like the end. It gave me end-of-an-era feelings, even though I’ve really only just begun.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk. It was a missed opportunity not to add this to the end of my essay post earlier this week.

My HRT checkup lasted 5 minutes and nothing of note happened. Yeah, that’s it, although they do sound like they’ll give me prog in 6 months. Could have gotten it now, but I feel like it’s safer, and not any worse, to wait a bit longer.

Spiro, it’s a diuretic.

Another day, another banger

Just talking about names and remembered that my dad has my dead name in armenian tattooed to his arm. How did this slip my mind for 6 months?

I got used to my name pretty quickly, although it’s pretty similar to my dead name. I’m not quite sure it’s the name I want to keep, even though I’m used to it. It would also probably take time to get used to another new name, change is hard.

I’ve done this before as well. It’s strange.

Also is it me (Luna counts too)?

Go for it 😁

What I noticed when taking it is increased libido, healthier skin and hair, and more energy. As far as breast development, it’s kinda hard to gauge for myself since I don’t have any data from a parallel universe where I didn’t take prog to compare to. Also, weirdly, prog gives me the ability to dream. Without it, I rarely have dreams, but when I take one, it’s a guaranteed dream that night. I assume that’s because I’m in a deeper sleep.

This is all very interesting! What’s also interesting is that it seems like it either helps with memory retention relating to dreams, or you’re actually getting more REM sleep, which actually means you’re not getting less deeper sleep (technically speaking ) . This is actually a good thing, REM is a crucial phase of sleep.

I mean, all of the other effects (minus maybe libido, but I’d have to experience it myself) seem very good. I’d totally take it for the healthier skin and hair, as well as the energy boost (also improved breast development, hopefully). Although, I now wonder if some of these things, such as having more energy (all of them really, energy applies the most) could be due to your improved sleep quality.

Again, very interesting!

My psychology textbook didn’t CW transphobia, how do I report it to the mods?

Keep us posted, I’m curious about prog as well!

Creamsicle is about to start Tokyo Drifting…

bump amber whataboutism volcel police

Oh yeah, was also feeling like an emo enboy for a while today (See image below for my live reaction).

(It was probably the hoodie I was wearing, I think what I’m wearing actually directly impacts how I feel about my gender (or lack thereof). See image above for my live reaction.)

I only have one page left in my large journal (187 days) and my urge to write a book is now combining with my urge to summarize my journal. The synthesis is writing an autobiography. Huh

TRANSformers

This is amazing. Why? Becuase I now want the fucking 1999 Toyota Corolla.

What are LGBTQ+ rights like within the DPRK? What are the laws and cultural norms like?

The Myth of Genocide

“I don’t like genocide”

“yeah this needs to stop”

Isn’t there someone you forgot to ask?

My mask broke and I don’t have another one on me.

This is horrible for a lot of reasons, including the fact that I’m sick

Perfectly messy hair is such a vibe