Eve_Rising [she/her]

Trans woman. Writer of fiction, reader of books, lover of synthwave, hater of fash. AnCom

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Cake day: December 14th, 2024

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  • I started in spring of 2019, and it was so amazing. Like others have said, it was like being able to breathe for the first time, a weight had been lifted, like I felt alive after decades of being walking dead. I felt connected to myself in a way I never had been before. Literally the best decision I ever made for myself. Life is worth living now.

    Mental changes happen first. I was happier and bubblier. My introversion turns out to have been partly due to gender anxieties. Your sense of smell expands, colors seem to pop more and be vibrant. Keep in mind here that you’ll be in puberty brain for the first few years. I was def acting like a teen for a while. You’ll be sleepy, you’ll be dealing with reconnecting with the full range of your emotions and that can be a rollercoaster sometimes. Your skin will get softer and fat cells will redistribute after a while. I first noticed it in my legs. I remember looking in the mirror one day momyhs into HRT and realizing hey those … those look different, rounder, more feminine. I may or may not have but definitely did do a happy squee. You can have height changes, weight changes, even my fingernails became softer.

    Why wait? You can take them for a few months (three or so I think) without permanent changes to your body, so if it isn’t for you you can just stop.







  • I uh have consistently read over 100 books a year on everything since I was a teen. Plus I would go to the college library and pick a section and just go down the row and read the intro and conclusion to each book so I had the gist and could select the couple best on the subject to read fully. Politics, theory, feminism, sociology, psychology, history, theology, philosophy, economics. I was homeschooled by Christian Nationalists so I’ve read a TON of that garbage (Hayek, Friedman, Sowell, von Misses, various CN Christofascists) and know their arguments from the inside. I became a leftist because I kept looking up their sources and going “hang on, I’m being lied to”

    Oh I’ve played Hitman 2! I liked that one. Before Borderlands I’d been replaying all the AC games up to Rogue. Im always discovering PS3 games I missed that is old hat to everyone else lol

    Yeahhh the us is awful and about to get even worse. The system was always bad, got marginally better and has been crumbling since the 80s. I’m trying to brace for impact but without resources it’s gonna be rough.




  • I’m not just reading vol. 2, I’m enjoying it, underlining, and making notes! Vol. 3 awaits soon lol. No, add away, I’m always excited for more books.

    I definitely don’t resonate as much with the Feinberg/Butler model of transness, I’m more aligned to Serano’s intrinsic inclinations model, but that in no way invalidates Feinberg or Butler, both of whom I’ve read and respect. I’m trying to read all the foundational works and they’re all so good.

    I would love a gaming desktop but I’m broke, can’t work, just got declined for disability (merry Christmas to me from the us hellstate!) and am unlikely to be hired in my deep red rural small town. Is there a new Hitman? I’m so out of the loop lol




  • Thank you, I will! I’m constantly reading a bunch of stuff because I struggle to focus and it’s nice to hop between books after a chapter or two.

    I’m halfway through Capital vol. 2 rn, burning through Zinn’s People’s History of the US, Feinberg’s Trans Liberation, a collection of solarpunk short stories called Sunvault, and a collection of writings by autistic trans ppl called Spectrums

    Right now I can’t play anything as my controller has drift in both sticks and trying to fight it and baddies was gonna give me a seizure so I had to stop. I’d been on a replay of Borderlands 2