LocalOaf [they/them, ze/hir]
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3·10 hours agoEh, more tension headaches. I’ve had migraines before and they always involve a lot of light sensitivity for me and I didn’t have that this time.
is that the podcast with Bryan from Street Fight? is it any good?
Yep, and usually imo? It can be a little hit and miss depending on the guest and the type of guy they’re discussing. Some of the sex topic ones get kinda gross and off-putting but some of them are really good when they have a good dynamic with the guest. It’s just goofy slop making fun of a type of weirdo each episode. The Nicotine Guys one with
was good imo and the Star Trek Guys one with
and Aaron from the Trillbillies was good. The ones with Tom Sexton and Minion Death Cult were good too but there’s a bunch I’ve missed.
2·10 hours agospoiler
That’s not insulting or pretentious at all, thank you
I’m gonna make myself write something tomorrow. I already have a gift figured out that I think she’ll like and have a container to ship it in that she gave me years ago.
Listening to my backlog of Guys: A Podcast About Guys while playin’ vidya and holding a kitty and feeling better now
Took a hot shower with an aromatherapy spray and took some ibuprofen and acetaminophen and the headache let up a bit
What’s modding etiquette for using assets other modders made? Just reach out to them for approval? There’s some cool stuff already made that I’d like to use to use but don’t want to piss off anyone by just taking their assets and repurposing them
“sudden”
That sucks and is probably a bug but is kinda really funny
Is Heroes any good? I liked parts of SA1 and SA2 is my favorite fwiw but I never got Heroes as a kid
In my experience, that means they’re a fundy of some denomination that thinks you’re a (some slur), and they’re being a Good Christian by being passive aggressive instead of directly bigoted towards you
D’awwwww!!! That rocks, super happy for you!
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You’re all good, I appreciate it
My closest friend sent me a letter awhile into my bad brain exile and I think she’d be able to forgive me but reaching out and knowing what to say feels incredibly daunting
I’ve been mulling over sending her a package with a gift and a huge apologetic letter but every time I start thinking about what to write I get overwhelmed and start crying
It’d require a complete dissolution of the MiC, which is unimaginable for the US empire in its role as the boots on the neck of the rest of the world
A defossilized US would be so fundamentally different and require a revolutionary change in its relation to the rest of the world that it would functionally be a completely different country
The
lib jingoist shit of “greening the military” with like, hybrid tanks or whatever is less realistic than green Posadism where benevolent aliens just gift us fusion electrical grids and terraform Earth back to pre-industrial atmospheric conditions and clean up all our pollution for us and rewild our forests imo
Many such cases
Maybe I gotta just LeArN 2 cOdE and make the games I want myself
I have like 3 game ideas I think would be cool and the only part of development I’m even slightly knowledgeable about is the audio production stuff
One would be a mod of one of my fav games so once I get a handle on its engine, a lot of it can reuse existing assets but I’d want to write a script and get voice acting and an original score so I’d probably have to learn to use LLMs for voice synthesis instead of hiring a whole cast for something I wouldn’t be able to sell, and find plugins for orchestral instruments to score it in a DAW
sadposting
Got to take a nap for the first time in ages
“Oh boy, I’m gonna catch up on my sleep deficit and feel less exhausted and cranky all the time!”
Wake up extremely groggy and irritable and have a headache, had weird uncomfortable dreams that made me sad and lonely
This sucks ass man, I’m really trying to consciously do better mentally and be less of a bitter asshole in my day to day life and my brain is a fuckin’ dickhead and not cooperative at all
sadposting, mental illness
I’m practically a hikikomori and fell out of touch with IRL friends like 4+ years ago when my depression got way worse than usual and I was a shitty friend and ghosted everyone
I thought I’d “work on myself” and get to a point in my transition during covid where I could return to being social as practically a new happier person, but I lost my insurance and got covid and spent up until around when I made this account and quit being a lurker just being severely depressed and borderline catatonic at the lowest points
I’m doing better now but I feel like I’ve kinda ruined my life and the trajectory I was on early 2020 and can’t stop beating myself up and lamenting over wasted time and a huge pause in my transition and I only got older and uglier and balder and fatter since then and I feel like I’m just kinda fucked
I’d love to reconnect with people and have irl friends and do fun stuff but I don’t want to go through a whole “hey so I know I look like (gestures at grotesque self) this, but I’m actually kind of a chick and a weird enby person” making new friends and I’m terrified that all my old friends will hate me for ghosting them and seeing me again hurting and disappointed in myself and looking like shit will just bum them out
Idk sorry, I feel really stuck and like I’ve really screwed myself for having an irl social life, and I’m easily overstimulated and agoraphobic and get sensory overload just grocery shopping sometimes
I really love the look of the Legends games, they’re kinda janky but I have a huge soft spot for that low-poly look and I played them as a kid and got used to the jank
MML3 never
There was supposed to be a spiritual successor game called Red Ash that got cancelled too after the Mighty Number 9 shitshow
Hopefully not
Shut uppppp