how do you not just completely fall into despair living as a vulnerable minority in the United States at this moment. what does a future even look like

more and more I realize my problem is americans and this specific cultural blight, not just any particular generation of them. I will never be at peace here. I can only hope I will mesh better anywhere else in the future.

Real world is extremely hostile to my continued existence on many axes. Here there is only a coin flip chance one will be, usually.

I have seen it. It has become so politicized that you risk any appointment running afoul of “professionals” who think they don’t need to wear anything on their face under any circumstances anymore- doctors, nurses, surgeons, dentists…

You know a surgeon that masks?

Navigating the completely fucked contradiction of being a militant communist and realizing your entire country is full of evil people at every rung of the social ladder. They will break the chains and then chain everyone else. Fuck this place forever.

If you’d like to play over online sim and maybe make a (cute, cool, nice) new friend feel free to ping me @itsmiaomiao:matrix.org

With the way power creep tends to go in games like this I think draft is the only truly fair way to play. It flexes every muscle the game has and I love it dearly. I like commander very casually but I agree it is not usually for me. I live in a super competitive area that I don’t have the resources nor desire to keep up with anymore so even constructed formats in-person I find a waste of time often; I keep those to mtgo leagues or arena just because it’s cheaper. I always do limited events if I go to anything physically these days.

I haven’t played in a minute but I used to do pauper 5c tron in mtgo leagues years ago, the meta is so much faster now and there have been a couple of bans that have hurt it. Prismatic Prism and Bonder’s Ornament are gone. Tolarian terror decks can have a 5/5 out very early and tron decks are just too slow to keep up. Lots of artifact hate going around. Red decks apparently main Cleansing Wildfire these days…many such cases. I am told some mono green variants can still do some stuff but tron is definitely falling off.

No PCR or rapid at-home test has ever turned up positive for me but I sure wish there were any other way to know if I have ever had it/how many times prior I may have had it.

For the avg treat-goer American I have heard as often as three-four times per year. The actual avg last I checked is two times a year. They can ban my mask when they physically come and take it off my face.

I love magic- I am a modern, pauper & legacy (sometimes) player, usually- but I have made an effort recently to not use Discord when I can help it. Let me know if there’s any want for a Matrix space or something and I’m in.

Genuinely made me feel better.

This has been my mentality through every suicidal episode I’ve ever been through so I get it, but…man, there really ought to be a better motivator than this in order to find a meaning in living, ya know? Oblivion sure feels more welcoming to me than another ~50 years of struggling with incurable chronic illness and assuredly continued institutional/societal abandonment despite any reasoning through it.

This is all fine and well until you understand how horribly the sick have been treated for, well, all of it, and this current moment has not managed to inspire much confidence in me that this is changing or will change. Have you read And the Band Played On by Randy Shilts? Insulin is “affordable” and “accessible” as of the 1980s because the Walmart guy’s friend got diagnosed with type 1- when’s the last time you ever thought about diabetes aside from whatever shock headline you read about Covid giving it to you? Please tell me of any inspiring historical record of disability justice and the contemporary reaction to it because it’s all extremely depressing to me!

Hello, what is this “fedia” instance and why are they all in here

30-39 is the right age bracket to have been mainlining anti-SJW Youtube at its peak

genuinely think this is it tbh

everyone gives millennials way too much credit when we are turning out just as bad if not worse than our parents ever were

I remember reading an analysis I liked from somewhere a few years ago saying that this phenomenon is because the “old money” of the 19th/early 20th century who knew where their value came from (the labor/exploitation of the working class & the third world) and how it related to class warfare and their position in it have all died out, and now all that’s left are “true believer” heirs and sycophants of that old money who don’t actually know where any of their surplus value comes from. To me, anyway, that may explain why everything is so much more nonsensical these days from the wealthy/ruling classes.

Only so many times a sail can get winded before the ship goes down. If you can do it more power to you, but I’m sunk.

There are no ultras or anarchists (that I know of) who are regulars on grad and in my xp that umbrella is the most drama-prone

I keep trying to do the dataannotation one because I can do programming but they keep making me unable to do the assessments and won’t respond to my support tickets. I’ve made like two separate accounts there and this has happened to both of them (very cool)

If this is a different one I’d like to bite. Bonus points if I can do programming stuff on it