it took me months to get through season five just from the sheer amount of brutality

i literally cant wait to see how evil western influence was in africa

i had to cackle pretty hard when bibi left a message behind a lamp with a fake israeli flag.

“we didnt kill CK” in front of an honest to god false flag lmao

whoever is holding the lathe is really funny but this is hack shit. this is tom clancy level shlock. give me that thing you idiot.

look… let’s suppose capitalism is a lottery. Let’s suppose the whole thing is just a lottery. Not in a religious way, but when you’re born that’s a dice roll. You come in as a reasonably blank slate, your initial conditions are the body, place, and position in society that your parents could manage, whatever that is.

The fucking thing is abstractly a pyramid, the seats at the top are much more limited than the seats at the bottom, but lots of people want the seats above them. They’ll knock people around, prey on ignorance, scam, cheat, lie to get it.

In those Top Seats are higher % changes of:

Good education resources and like, developmental inertia in literally becoming a functioning human.

Infrastructure and capital to see things happen.

we know this stuff, and i know i’m even keeping it a little too simple. This lottery is rigged and not truly random, for one.

but congrats, you’re a white guy, not just that! and you have the pedigree, your parents have the purse and the connections that you’re now inheriting, are all tied to wealth and power - you have some agency to make stuff happen in this awful little society, or you will by the time you’re an adult in the swing of things.

okay well. you’re gathering momentum doing something, and figuring your shit out as you step into adulthood. Enter now: the people who want to make your thing about their things. You can sometimes just offer to buy people out or steer with that kind of influence, power, money peddling - but they for whatever reason dont have what you have, they want it, and if they can’t take it, they’ll settle for getting in your ear and steering you around if you let them.

EVEN IF that dweeb beats the odds and stays good - hasn’t lost his soul when he starts whatever his life work is set to be - that insulated life means that right as he finds the world, the world finds him and runs him roughshod, drains him dry, and makes the world a colder, uglier place as the realities of his position are revealed and made clear: this is not a place of heroes, we don’t live in a nation run by the virtuous, quite the opposite.

If you want to stay good, your option is to take your pogs and go home and play your own games, in a lower stakes arena, or to give it all up, frankly, in a sacrifice that absolves you more of the weight of that world as you depart from it.

The world is, in 2025, atomized and vicious down to that atom. It wants you to fight, and survive, and tear, and thieve, and take, and as the chosen ones for the project of driving that world forward, you really only get to come from the bottom to the top if you’re a special kind of intelligent and vicious, and just somehow one that fell through the cracks and finds yourself more useful than dangerous to one of these people. You have to prove you can play the game, and go play it.

charlie kirk might’ve been some naive idiot with the potential for an interesting, influential destiny making the world better. Maybe in his heart somewhere was that possibility. Maybe.

But it doesn’t matter, because he wasn’t self aware enough to stay himself if that’s the case, and it’s such an interior thing, one can never know.

sometimes they break those people early, sometimes they break late. it comes sooner or later if you try to play the games he was playing.

are you trans? are you healthy physically? if not do you have the ability to get yourself in shape?

we are reaching a point where networks, community, and uhh, readiness, are going to be the survival orders of the day. get yourself there however you can people. not a drill, etc.

the historical jesus was likely a fucking rebellion leader. the civil rights movement had multiple wings and a movement that was willing to get dirty - the chief executive crackers are just agents of imperialism who, by the sheer grace of their time and place, did a few things that were probably good, relative to their peers.

how has information quality fallen so much that this swine garbage actually has purchase?

can i also say, this thing where capital murders people and turns them into martyred icons whose main purpose is to quell the movements that made them dangerous to be like, one of the most infuriating tricks that people consistently fall for

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i sincerely think that at a certain level of power you aren’t allowed to even find out where the door is without mutually compromising material. I think it’s a big part of how foreign govts compromise our lawmakers and stuff, and i think that also happens domestically. in fact the two are the same thing kinda? like im not kidding, i do think it’s the same kind of reasoning that has skull & bones members cranking it in a coffin and telling each other dark secrets. It’s mutual security through mutually assured destruction. everyone compromised stays in line, anybody who steps out is sacrificed to the proles, and the world keeps on turning towards destruction because there are not nearly enough people in places of power that are not themselves compromised

the price of a ticket to enter the carnival is doing one of the most evil things in the world.

please tell me how you define ‘indie’ in terms of the games industry please, because i’m very confused at your post but we can start there.

indie doesn’t necessarily have class implications to me, although if i think about it, one can assume that even a one man or two man dev team on a passion project will likely have resources that flags them as bouge but idk this doesnt make sense, maybe it will if you explain how you define indie tho

game is really cool

piracy is fine. i think the indie/aaa divide is an artificial cope designed to inject a sense of moral discernment where it doesn’t belong.

it’s probably goty so imo if you can support a guy for making his magnum opus do it but otherwise like, there are more important things than lawful commerce for lots of people right now

pseudo immortal psychic vampires, probably

get me some bear spray and a piece of the true cross i’ll fix this

it seems to come and go in a cycle. it’s not every night, but for the last couple of months i go through a period of several days where i swell up, have this reaction, then it stops/goes away for a bit

I haven’t done what somebody else suggested, which is oiling my clothes and sheets before washing in detergent, but all of my clothes and sheets have been washed many times over at this point since the event, and I was paranoid and went super hard on cleaning surfaces after the exposure

they do not help, no

all of the symptoms I am experiencing emerge in the immediate time following my participation in the protest and the exposure to the gas.

I have had irritated eyes before, but we are speaking of something like, an eye that’s itchy for a day and it gets a little red maybe, but i rinse it and try not to scratch and it clears up. This is totally different, with the ducts and area around the eyes turning red, swelling up in the extreme, and just constantly leaking/crusting/etc. - Not a single time in my life before this stuff has this happened, and incidentally the closest thing to this I had been exposed to prior was consumer grade pepper spray a woman used on a harasser on a bus i was on.

I usually notice this stuff after going bed. It seems like I go to bed, and wake up to my hands and feet swelling up. The hand swelling fucks with my sense of touch really badly, i’m autistic with a lot of sensitivity, and the sensations drive me insane. I’m not even doing anything right now for example, but im experiencing a sensation as if i was running my hands along car upholstery, which is one of the worst sensations you can expose me to. It feels so wrong, and that’s just the ambient state.

But yeah, the trigger seems to be while i’m asleep. It usually starts with hand swelling, and then a rapid flare-up of my eyes, and the feet usually follow after that.

my joints become really painful in the inflamed areas. My fingers burn when i try to articulate them right now.

As far as allergies, i have had an allergic reaction to the smoke of burning mesquite wood - this is literally the only allergy I know I have for sure.

The basics are:

i was extremely conscientious of the exposure and removing any kind of irritant contamination from my c lothes. i stripped immediately on getting home, washed everything, washed everything i touched incidentally. Anything washable was washed. any surface was scrubbed.

i would wonder if it’s something else as far as cause, but nothing else makes sense, and the symptoms consistently just imitate post-exposure symptoms

right now i mostly use pain relieving neosporin along the ou tside of the eye, where the swelling tends to be, in tiny, and i do mean tiny, amounts. Other than that i do regular washing of the eyes, and that’s really it. i’m pretty broke and have mostly had to find solutions with what’s on hand. if milk of magnesia might help i’ll look into it though

vanity, “I choose this because of my autistic fixations”: koine greek coptic biblical Hebrew

then Spanish and Mandarin for practical real life stuff.

with those kinds of freaks, they get a little scared of something like Scott happening, but then they take excessive measures to make themselves feel safe, and from that position tend to become way, way, way worse.

i’m religious too - i just feel like if there’s a God, it would want me to unify with and reconcile with other humans - anything that’s fundamentally alienating therefore needs be carefully analyzed, imo

but there’s no doubt this wretched nation has lost the mandate of heaven. I just wonder how you have to be wired such that you inherit these trends?

idk what i’m seeking really

i genuinely dont understand this kind of racism

how do you get threatened by people who aren’t like you getting marketed to?

it’s a bit crazy making. i know the art of rhetoric gets used to mislead these folks, but that kind of bullshit requires a kind of base substrate to bloom properly - so what’s got Whitey so insecure that this is a thing?

I’m white and I mostly just wanna be better than my ancestors, and do my best to not be a racist shithead? it’s easy and it sometimes feels validating and stuff - what in the fuck is going on. was it always like this. were we always like this? is my growing sense of alienation just me becoming aware of and pulling away, rather than some amplification of a new phenomenon?

that’s slightly rhetorical, i just wanna invite analysis

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