Again, I will say that the understanding of consciousness is usually limited to the order at which it becomes organized into awareness. I say this is connected to how anyone may understand reality subjectively.
It is very fortunate to have an awareness that extends upward or downward to any degree. Most people live their experience locked into a flat plane of being. Seems like you appreciate that.
Well what can I say? Subjective reality is very much defined by the complex interrelationship of abilities or limitations of the ‘equipment’ you’ve been given to do the work of interpreting it.
There really is nothing for me to say that would be invalidating your experience or understanding of the world, and I say this because I think I have at one point in time of my life been able to tap into it and see it in a similar way. It is an experience that meant a lot to me and that I miss dearly, but I also would not likely ever risk making a journey back to that state of mind as the process of doing so has become too dangerous for me.
You seem as though you are well, and that is what matters, and I am glad you shared.
First of all, I mean no disrespect when I say this. You have a very particular style of writing that is commonly seen in people with schizophrenia.
It’s always interesting to read this kind of thing for me, and it really reminds me a lot of when I took LSD when I was younger
Maybe there is a crossover to autism, because I am autistic, but I think fundamentally your neurodivergence may be a little more exciting than that.
i guess my question is: did you draw/paint the kobold or did you just add the colorful blobs, sparkles and bubble text?
Auto-immune autism gang here. You can beat the depression, but the psoriasis, arthritis and bowel inflammation just keeps going and growing.
I like to think of it this way: I am built to handle being constantly uncomfortable in all kinds of ways. I do like what @BeUnique is offering for brain fog, though, and will try it out.
I prefer to use linux.
I try not to be very fixated on the superiority/inferiority dynamic.
It is very difficult lately
Care means ‘heart’ in french Coeur.
Wow, that really sucks and I relate to this very much.
There are a lot of learnings that you can take from this though, if you’re willing to try to look at this difficult experience from different perspectives. If it were me in this situation today I would try to think of all the possibilities like:
Carbon offset credits. You just buy them and then the CO2 goes away because someone else will plant a tree probably somewhere. /s
You are not punching anyone in the face. And telling other people they are lazy or bad for not pretending otherwise doesn’t make it anymore true that you are. You’re just someone shouting a lie at a person who is sick of being shouted at and wondering why no one is doing what you want them to do.
That’s quite the story you’ve invented for me. I didn’t call anyone lazy or bad, and I’m wholly confused at what lie I’m supposedly shouting here.
I can imagine that you’re frustrated by your own inability to effect the change you would like to see. Totally understandable.
It’s only true in this system that rewards the self-serving individual. I don’t believe this is implicit to human nature, but we have to be willing to collectively punish bad actors severely, rather than shrug and look the other way as these people misbehave.
The violent struggle is inevitable at this point, its really now just about how may times you’ll let yourself be punched in the face until you punch back.
Clocks… check. Trains… check. Social welfare supports… check. Clear communication… check.
Switzerland with Pokemon.
I mean, yeah, sounds cool.
I’m not who you asked, but I would set limits on my time in participating and bring the tools I need to help manage the sensory load.
Yes I’ll come with you, but I won’t stay. My partner might have to learn to be okay on their own for the rest of the night or with leaving early with me sometimes. I will bring my loop switch adjustable earplugs and my FL-41 glasses to tone down the sensory inputs so that I have more processing available for social exchanges.
I won’t nag or complain… I will just be aware of when I’m at my limit and then responsibly facilitate my own exit when it’s time.
This really describes a struggle I have. I think what is most challenging for me is that it seems that you need to figure out how to do this unsupported by those you are trying to manage with. Very few people will even feel unburdened by a conversation to frame the situation correctly, and a genuinely supportive kind of person is a glass of water in the desert.
I suppose it’s a possibility.
Here’s an example of where OpenAI sort of failed to do that but maybe could have… https://globalnews.ca/news/11676795/tumbler-ridge-school-shooter-chatgpt-account-flagged-banned-openai/
Kash Patel is an idiot, though, and just saying shit with no factual basis supporting his claims.
Oh my god, that is so stressful to be considering. I really get it… and I have disclosed at work, mainly at first due to a moral dilemma. I had a couple separate occasions where teammates were feeling a little salty and throwing the word ‘retarded’ around to express their dissatisfaction with this or that. I was able to deal with it pretty optimally, and it has stopped (at least when I’m around.) I couldn’t let that go by unchallenged and so that outted me.
I don’t have any formal accommodations, I have requested some in the past and basically was answered with ‘figure it out yourself’.
I am slowly moving toward the ‘IDGAF what others think of me’ attitude that I really want… its a process.
Yeah. I’m aware of that fact, sad as it is.
The denominator is divisible by the numerator.
That’s okay. I prefer to get your distillation of whatever these resources are. its too much research for me to take on.