Waldoz53 [he/him, any]

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Cake day: November 15th, 2020

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  • oh all the time…always feels like im just there and an addon to the hang out. on top of all of that one of my real life friends, a person i’ve known for 15+ years, always complains that he has to drive 30 min to get to my apartment (i dont have a car). it pisses me off. i’m always the last to be invited, even though i suggest stuff doing stuff all the time. guess who didn’t know people were playing commander mtg together until today?

    i’ve been on the internet for a long time too and i’ve been in so many online communities and i’ve had the exact same problem, i’m just in the fringe, i’m just there. i know people who met online and started dating, are now married, or they have no problem driving or flying to visit each other (which makes my friend who complains about 30 min drives to my apartment come off so much worse). in my communities i try to suggest stuff. play a game together, i started a monthly movie club in a discord i was already in (its so casual, its just watch 1 movie and talk about it) but no one shows up. i was watching my friends twitch channel, and there were so many people talking in his chat, all from old MMO guilds, from guilds that havent been active in years, all people he cultivated and grouped together.

    the irony is that i think i’m not an introverted person at all, i love being around people, i’ve just never fit in somewhere. itd be easier to cope with all this if i had something else going on in my life, but i dont so i just spiral every few weeks or days now. i’ve got too much time to think about everything, and i only think of the worst stuff