They should be willing to give you a few days of pills in the interim regardless while you get this sorted. Push them on that. The SSRI withdrawal is real and awful.

So far, the Pisces R: utility, maneuverability, acceleration.

I’m sorry (and I’m sure you’re tired of hearing that).

Have you been tested/diagnosed for ADHD? There’s a lot of overlap with ASD. Medication is highly effective among ADHDers. It’s not a panacea but it makes doing the work far easier.