

I’ve been struggling with the same kind of themes and wanted to share my experience.
Dreams have been bittersweet. On one hand dreams feel light as air and carefree to see myself as femme. On the other hand waking up puts me in a bad dysphoric mood the whole day.
Not woman enough. I’ve been taking a guerrilla war approach to this one because trying to do it all at once is overwhelming, and the key has been celebrating small victories. Laser hair removal takes time, but every little bit is an incremental victory. My nail painting skills are still trash, but as a result of getting some proper tools and cuticle oil I’m taking better care of them they are stronger and healthier. This theme also reminds me of the pressure others put on us to “prove it,” and that we put on ourselves to conform to some type of gender ideal. See The Null HypotheCis for more.
Too late. Yes it would have been nice to figure this out years ago. But wouldn’t it be better to live authentically, given that Now is all we have?
And… I love your username. Toughest Starfleet captain, model main character, and a picture of femininity.
Ask your endo about adding progesterone.