Figuring stuff out
So this is me, I do not want to ever lose my hair, I’ve had it long for a long time and I enjoy how feminine it makes me feel me even if I otherwise look and feel anything but. I just wanna be pretty but I’m so scared but also kinda numb? Even though I think most of the people in my life would be accepting. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it so advice or nice emojis are welcome
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what am I going to do 
I can relate to all these things, you’ll find your happiness 
saw them in the mirror just now, i t’s a nice feeling, I hope everyone else is feeling great <3
I just don’t want to lie to myself anymore but I have no idea what the truth is. It’s so frightening to think about talking to anyone but my online friends about it even though I’m surrounded by positive people. I think I need to look into therapy and figure things out. (Apologies to Sonic if I turn out to be cishet. 
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Can I ask what sort of androgynous clothes? I’d like to get some but I have no idea where to begin
After a year or so of thinking I was androgeneous I finally decided to explore my alt side and an awful lot of questions came with that. Before, it was kind of in the back of my mind like “haha wouldn’t it be so cool if you could dress/act/love like that? oh well” and now it’s at the forefront of my mind. I have read some of the literature in the faq on here and quite a lot of it resonates with me. I think I have a lot more exploring to do but it’s quite exciting
Sometimes when I’m listening to a Rush mix, “Heresy” comes on and I actually