My problem is that I want kids.

Except, I know it’s stupid. The insurmountable student loan debt that’s currently a yoke around my neck is half of what it would cost to raise my ideal two children to just 18 years old. Climate change is going to destroy our way of life in the next 30 years, I’d be bringing them into a world on the brink of collapse. Society will break down when famine/disease start going unchecked, this is what I want them to experience? All so, what? I can have a little buddy that looks up to me and thinks I’m great for a few years? All so I can get my little kodak moments in between miserable days filled with screaming, crying, no sleep, stress, financial hardship, troubled marriage, and no sex?

And here I am, suffering from major chronic depression/anxiety… Would I even be a good steward of these children? I know I’d like to think of myself as just a baby away from switching into “Dad mode,” but would it be enough? Would I be waking up early to get my kids breakfast and lunch together, or would I fall deep into depression and get up at 2PM like I’ve been doing? Will I even have the energy enough to play with my kids after work? What about building that tree-house, and doing school projects? What about after-school sports and parties and everything else? I am barely holding myself together, am I really going to be able to switch my whole personality like a light switch into becoming the kind of Dad these kids would need?

I would be trapping myself into a job I hate forever, just to have these children, which would also make retirement a fever dream.

So why the hell do I still want them? I just wish my head and my heart could be on the same page for this, and they are just not.

I know if it’s raining out, and you start to hear bird song, it means the rain is about to stop.

Also if leaves on trees are flipped upside down, it’s about to start raining.

Do with that what you will.

your ex is a narcissist that didn’t want to put in the effort necessary to help someone.

I mean, you would most definitely need an entire crew to pilot a spacecraft of that size, so it really wouldn’t be drunk driving unless you all were hammered. In which case, probably wouldn’t get very far before some sub-system shorted out in a massive way

Well she seems to still be alive and well so news of her destruction seems to have escaped her.

Also interesting that every country in the extreme, is a country I would never choose to visit as a tourist.

Some wizard tool I can download that will swap out Windows for a stable Linux distro, like Fedora or Debian.

TIL that “Death Mud” is a thing 😶

OMG I’ve been to this castle. It’s in the Netherlands, and a popular place to get married because the surrounding outdoor area is beautiful. I passed it while bicycling to another area, stopped, and took pictures. I’m pretty sure I have a picture of this exact area on one of my older phones somewhere

There are 5 toes in the picture. Despite this, it still seems like there are too few toes on that foot (by the fruit).

Because it’s fuel for your soul, man.

Fuel for your Soul

God I love the “Bypass Paywalls Clean” extension. NYTimes always thinks I’m a bot.

Well what happened is it tried to update, got stuck, and now won’t start. tried starting it over and over and over again while hitting F1 and F2 and it just spins it’s fans. Though it randomly will start-up into a weird BIOS safe mode and give me a couple options, but I’ve yet to find the magic option that let’s me boot it up using the previous version of windows just so I can turn it into a Linux machine. It’s gotten to the point that I’m willing to pay someone to take it and convert it into Linux Fedora or Debian for me (and then pay for a quick tutorial in how tf Linux works 😭 )

EDIT is this actually a service? If this exists I’ll fucking do it, I swear

I mean, yes, we need to study women’s health more. It’s a big glaring hole in a ton of medical research. I’m just trying to stay with the vibe of the thread. I think that just like with cutting edge cancer research being done that focuses on tailoring the specific drug/method of action to that persons specific cancer, so too should most of our medical treatments be tailored not just to what’s between your legs, but to you, specifically. More research into everyone, but especially the largely ignored demographic of women, is needed to accomplish this. So… you’re right, but I think I’m right too.

Yo ARCO was fantastic. I’ve been recommending it to everyone since I saw it.

but what they really need to know is the average hormonal balance for that specific person, before they started going out of whack.

quick which party is trying to undermine and sanction the international criminal court?

Oh is it the republicans? The republicans are trying to dismantle the institution that would bring these genocidal zionists to justice? huh. funny thing. Seems like you’re advocating for the people trying to let isreal skirt justice and murder more innocent people, but hey, what do I know.

This also I think could be fixed by taking a more human-centric holistic approach. Don’t need to know you’re a woman, just that you’re experiencing drastic hormone changes. BAM, we gotta help regulate those hormones. Men love finding out they’re low on testosterone, so they can start taking a bunch. Women should be able to get their hormones just as easily.

Trans people should go to the doctor and be like, I appear to be missing a bunch of estrogen and progesterone! and the doctor should be like “no shit, that sucks, here’s a prescription for them.”

So if we extrapolate here, that means everybody should have a gun! Then, when this happens every day, maybe 1 out of 50 or so will have a chance of the shooter being stopped by a second shooter! Then everyone will be safe!

perhaps instead you should ask why republicans block every attempt at federal gun regulation? Especially after SandyHook… you’d have to be a heartless monster not to support gun control after that. Which, Yeah, I’m pretty comfortable calling all elected republicans heartless monsters.