

I wish I could go out into nature away from everyone and everything. Unfortunately that means driving for many hours. Rural living was rough in some ways, but I do miss it sometimes.


I wish I could go out into nature away from everyone and everything. Unfortunately that means driving for many hours. Rural living was rough in some ways, but I do miss it sometimes.


Also my coworker gendered me correctly and it melted my heart. It was wonderful. He was talking about meeting me the first time (we had spoken briefly right after I got hired) and said he was internally like “woah she’s tall” and it didn’t make me dysphoric??? Like, being gendered correctly right out the gate somehow made all that dysphoria just… Not get activated??? Its still there but like… Him saying that didn’t make me feel terrible… It was really nice.


A person at work today said people like me and that they say I’m great, and I just about cried. I was able to stop it but god I just… Idk, I’m performing well in my job, I’m not alienating people(!!! Is this true??? Part of me is screaming its all a lie, a neurotypical lie to make me feel safe before the do something to hurt me, but at the same time… Idk. I just, I’m trying to accept it, and not freak out or be paranoid that people dont like me, but its hard. Part of me says they’re just saying that to be nice, that it isnt true… But I’m trying hard to not believe that). I just, I’m terrified that the world is working out in some kind of way. I can’t get past it… I just. My life is supposed to be miserable, I’d resigned myself to basically being in poverty forever, and now there’s a possibility I wont be??? Like… Am I going to be in a position where I can feed myself??? I’m not gonna make tons and tons here, but I’m gonna be not-drowning if this keeps up… Idk. I just. Its freaky and scary and I’m just not sure what to do or how to feel but its wonderful and I’m trying really hard to not let the anxiety and internalized stuff pull me into the darkness.
HOW CAN PEOPLE AT MY JOB LIKE ME??? I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AT THEM THAT THEYRE WRONG FOR LIKING ME AND SHOULD BE HYPERCRITICAL AND STRICT WITH ME BUT IM NOT IM NOT SCREAMING THAT BUT ITS INSIDE ME AND oh… I think I have some self worth issues I haven’t addressed…


I keep seeing people write it girlmodding… Maybe my brain is inserting an extra d?


Goddamn… Whelp, another one in the “never have people you look to as doing some modicum of something right, but especially in tech” bin. Maybe if I ever make enough money I can rent a vps and set up git on it.


Goddamn, I point people to devaults blog for info of fascism in free software…


Why is it girlmodding/boymodding? I read it as girl/boy+modding, which, I guess yeah modifying ourselves? But when spoken I hear (and say) girl/boy+mode+ing, which would give girl/boy+modeing, which then drops the e (cause English is special) to become girlmoding/boymoding.

Its for an employee to manage intakes and patient data. No mention of hipaa compliance. I dont think inputs are sanitized. They chose python probably because Claude said to. But were probably going to reject it, unless told otherwise from the tippytippytop.

Yeah, were gonna reject it unless the executive director of the whole org says otherwise (he probably won’t)

My org doesn’t produce code. This is a noncoder who made a thing to make their job easier. Thankfully after talking to others, were gonna probably reject it as “this is not your wheelhouse, we can’t review it, you’re saving 10 minutes and making hours of work for us in the process”. No one wants users writing this stuff, especially not when it touches hipaa data.

Lmao that would be hilarious


I went from sorry I was born to cursing my parents for having a child together 


[Serious] if you’re going to use tone tags, fucking use them correctly. Or at least put a little fucking thing in their making clear that you’re not actually serious. Dont dilute an already half broken thing that barely let’s us communicate clearly.
If you were being genuine, this isnt a universal experience in america. There’s a culture of violence, and a lot of exploitation - sexual and otherwise - but the proverbial lady at the counter isnt making her wages from you comitting sexual violence.


Its called A Boy And His Dog and its not fucked up at all


On the one hand, yes please death to cars. On the other hand, job please compensate me for car insurance and gas to/from work and everything else, its expensive and yall require me to have a car every day.


cant believe the only thing they wanted from me was my dick
Part of me wants to say “wtf??” but tbh I’m not surprised. I’m sorry they only wanted you for that, its a shitty feeling and a shitty way of engaging with a person. Even amongst ourselves we can’t stop valuing people strictly for their bodies 
like, there’s this weird thing where some trans women (at least in my world) value dick so much, think a strap isnt as good, devalue vagina-havers ability to be toppy, etc., and its just
. I know it takes a lot to deconstruct masculinity, especially when its enforced on you against your will, but fucking goddamn people need to deconstruct harder. But we’re never taught how to deconstruct our own internal stuff in this culture and its difficult and painful so people dont want to try and dont want to learn (at least, I know I didn’t).


There’s a couple cis people in my life who are chill. I love them very much, they will - and do - support me. Right up until its too inconvenient or visible.


I heard you like operating systems so I put an operating system around your operating system.


Proud of youuuu!!! I hope I get there, I recently quit (again
). Its hard and I’m glad you surprised yourself 
I know its low hanging fruit but good lord the comments are… Amazing. Like, what world do these people live in? Do words not have definitions and meanings there?