Sapphiria 🏳️‍⚧️ [she/her]

Software dev, hobbyist programmer, and video game enjoyer. Socially anxious mess.

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Guild Wars 2: Sapphiria.5643

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  • I recently set up LineageOS on my rpi4 for this. With that setup, I think you’d be able to use the Android version of Moonlight. I haven’t used Moonlight before though, so not sure how good of an experience that is on Android. Since the official images didn’t support Android TV, I ended up using this version. Performance is a little slow in the menus (and very slow in the Twitch app, but that’s also true on the fire stick). I’ll probably give rpi5 a shot at some point in the near future to see if that offers better performance.

    Bluetooth game controller works quite well (a little too well, the box notifies me when controllers are trying to sync), and works with apps like RetroArch and Jellyfin. I think it’s supposed to support AirPlay or whatever the Android equivalent is too, but I haven’t tried that. I also had to install gapps to sign into YouTube, but most other streaming apps I tried worked without it. Some of them require specific Android TV devices though, so a 3rd party app store or side loading may be needed for some of them.

    I originally wanted to use Plasma Bigscreen with Waydroid, but I ran into the same problem of not being able to find an Android TV image. I did try building it myself, but that was taking too long so I eventually gave up.



  • I was definitely like Kid B. My precalculus teacher once asked me, in front of the whole class, how many assignments I’d have done out of 10. To which I answered honestly with 2, making everyone laugh.

    My trigonometry teacher was convinced I was cheating on tests since I barely did any homework, and had me take a test alone in front of her to prove I wasn’t. I did well enough that she believed me and stopped questioning it, fortunately.

    Also had a teacher scold me one on one in elementary school over not doing homework, making me cry. I’m sure she thought she was helping, but all that accomplished was making me feel bad.

    Didn’t figure out I had ADHD until my 30s. Hopefully things will keep getting better for kids as knowledge and awareness expand.



  • Moonstone Island is similar to Stardew Valley, with some Pokemon and Slay the Spire sprinkled in.

    Graveyard Keeper also fits in that genre, though it’s more management than farming.

    Or if you’re looking for a cozy puzzle game: Cocoon, Unpacking, or A Little to the Left are some good ones.

    If you’re looking for something trans coded, there’s some shorter games that are pretty good: Secret Little Haven, A Normal Lost Phone.

    I’d describe Ikenfell as a cozy RPG. You save the game by finding a cat to pet.

    And Iris and the Giant I think is the only relaxing deck builder I’ve seen. Very calming.



  • I wrote about my experience here if anyone is interested in reading. The short version is that Life is Strange got me to actively question whether I was trans, as a result of me being absolutely obsessed with it and trying to figure out why I related so much to characters that were nothing like me on the surface. In all honesty, if it weren’t Life is Strange, it would have been something else. But that sure did speed up the process a bit.

    It took me 3 years after asking myself directly if I was trans. I felt the need to figure things out independently for some reason. Partly out of shame and internalized transphobia I suppose.

    I’ve been wanting to write more about it too - particularly about the weeks following that realization, which consisted of multiple revelations/epiphanies from recontextualizing things that had happened in my past under this new lens of understanding.





  • One of the funniest signs for me was when trying to design a VR game with a friend. For some background, it was a first person game where you can play pool remotely with others. With more of an emphasis on the social aspect than the game of pool. Didn’t end up getting past the design phase though (yay ADHD).

    At some point in our conversation, I brought up player character model - whether you should even have one, what is should look like, etc. I mentioned being able to select or change gender of this model, but he seemed a bit confused by that, and told me it would feel a bit wrong or uncomfortable in VR to look down at yourself and see a different gender. This confused the shit out of me, so I responded something like, “Really? I’d actually prefer looking down and seeing myself as a woman.”

    It would be another few years before my egg finally cracked.









  • I found this blog post, titled The Null HypotheCis, to be pretty helpful when I was questioning. To summarize, basically it can be helpful to stop treating being cis as the default, and treat both cis and trans as equal possibilities. That can be a much better way to frame things, as it allows you to consider if you are cis in the same way you are trying to consider if you are trans. For me, that made it much clearer that I wasn’t cis.

    So to put it another way - you listed a few reasons you think you’re trans, but it’s worth asking yourself what reasons you have for thinking you’re cis. And how do those two stack up against each other?