Job hunting seriously continues to be depressing. I’ve been in this hole of unemployment for too long. I’ve had brief moments of hope, such as a time where I did have a job for a few months but got fired for no apparent reason and job offers that ended up being disappointing, misleading, or even scams.

I seriously just wanna be able to be an exploited worker like everyone else… at least in that case I can feel some level of “independence” and “freedom,” as they call it.

It feels like an endless hell, and I have many aspirations, like leaving this shitty state or being able to get the music equipment I need to record a debut album, but it’s hard for me to even see that end in sight. I’m confused and don’t know what more to do. I try to sit, research, and brainstorm ideas but get overwhelmed by how long I do it and come up with nothing in the process.