I was meant to record a segment for a radio program to discuss some of the unique implications that being trans can have for your mental health. We’d decided to talk a bit about how I’d ended up getting an ADHD diagnosis as a result of starting feminizing hormones, they’d made it significantly worse and I was struggling to keep up with daily life.
Now I’ve ended up having to put that recording off for a while because I was struggling with some pretty severe depression, but it seems like this is probably borderline personality disorder. I saw a few Reddit posts where some said they’d had noticed theirs get worse after starting hrt and I’m wondering if anyone here has experienced anything like this, or knows about research into it?
Could be any disorder or condition, it’s all good to know about as there doesn’t seem to be that much info out there beyond people’s experiences, it could help others to hear yours. (I’ll add mine to the comments)
I won’t share any details on that program beyond what I get your consent for or anything reasonably vague such as “I spoke to x other people who’ve had similar experiences.”
I’ve got what seems like CPTSD which causes me to go from a wonderful day to reliving the past and feeling like life is horrible, just as I did pretransition.
I’m also autistic, which could (but hasn’t for me) be combined with the “so called trans people are confused narrative” for people to think I’m just so gullible I feel for being transed. Luckily I’ve not experienced that, but seeing how the US is going, I think that risk is increasing. I just want autonomy and for my decisions to not be delegitimized.
Politics in general is just rough for mental health because I don’t know when next they’re gonna make it harder for me to get my life-saving treatment. I already experienced about a week off my meds earlier this year because laws changed and I had to scramble to reschedule stuff, and that was still the worst I’ve felt this year.
I’m so sorry, the political landscape is absurdly difficult for so many of us right now, we’re all thinking of you down here.
Thank you for sharing and I’m sorry that you’re having such a tough time.