I was meant to record a segment for a radio program to discuss some of the unique implications that being trans can have for your mental health. We’d decided to talk a bit about how I’d ended up getting an ADHD diagnosis as a result of starting feminizing hormones, they’d made it significantly worse and I was struggling to keep up with daily life.

Now I’ve ended up having to put that recording off for a while because I was struggling with some pretty severe depression, but it seems like this is probably borderline personality disorder. I saw a few Reddit posts where some said they’d had noticed theirs get worse after starting hrt and I’m wondering if anyone here has experienced anything like this, or knows about research into it?

Could be any disorder or condition, it’s all good to know about as there doesn’t seem to be that much info out there beyond people’s experiences, it could help others to hear yours. (I’ll add mine to the comments)

I won’t share any details on that program beyond what I get your consent for or anything reasonably vague such as “I spoke to x other people who’ve had similar experiences.”

  • Sasha [They/Them]@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
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    6 hours ago

    That sounds like it was such a hard journey, I’m proud of you for stepping up and taking responsibility for yourself. I definitely understand feeling cursed, I’ve had plenty of nights crying wondering who was controlling me and ruining my life, it’s so hard.

    I’ve only once ended up with really intense feelings for someone I wasn’t seeing, and it was pretty rough. I never told them but we’re very close friends now, I’m really glad it worked out, I don’t know what I’d do if I’d been this bad back then.

    HRT has definitely felt like I’m redoing my teenage years, everything’s brand new and I’ve no idea how to do so many things anymore. I feel like all the memories of life before HRT belong to someone else, it’s such a bizarre experience and nothing ever prepared me for this.

    Thank you for your story, that’s very brave of you to share and it helped me a little.