cross-posted from: https://discuss.online/post/21704981
I used to think less about animals in the past, was generally ‘human supremacist’ about it and viewed most non-household pets as nothing more than food
Only recently I started becoming more aware, and I chose vegan options whenever possible, but Eid-Al-Adha came around and we bought two cows, one to keep the other for donations.
I slit the throats of both cows, and at first I got dizzy and was unable to keep praying along, and by the second I tried to focus on the scenery instead and not think about it too much
I don’t know, it was a heavy experience, I went to wash my face but coming back to a bloody carcass and a detached head made me have a panic attack and I had to sit down to catch my breath
I don’t think I will repeat it next year, but what am I even meant to do?
Qurbani is actually meant to be a sacrifice in the first place. We’re sacrificing something close to us for Allah. But Feeling compassion and kindness for animals is completely normal and okay. In your case, it’s a bit too much for you so you’re free to appoint someone else (a butcher or trusted individual) to perform the slaughter on your behalf.
In case of veganism, Veganism is generally considered halal in Islam, provided the individual does not hold the belief that consuming animal products is inherently forbidden (haram) or that abstaining from them is a religious act of worship.
And Allah knows best. I would suggest to ask advice from a good Sheikh or a very knowledgeable and religious Muslim
