Awake when I should be asleep. Worried when I should be assured. Burning out when I ought to be recharging.

Slowly recovering from times of outer turmoil and inner change. Slowly learning how to enjoy things again after being depressed for very long. Habits are strange, I still catch myself wanting to be miserable sometimes and have to remind myself ‘We don’t need that anymore, just get back to the work you like and return to the no-worry state.’

Functional. Things are stable. I suppose a bit overwhelmed by an excess of things on todo lists and a lack of reasons to do them. So the couch is getting a lot of my me time.

Something’s off and I can’t pin it to anything other than the ever present depression and anxiety, the panic attacks that come with it.

I need to exercise more. Living rurally is making neither exercising nor socializing an easy out, and I need to fix that.

Worse than I have been in years. Completely paralyzed by my ADHD and desperately, darkly depressed about four hours a day.

Other than that, doing great.

Surprisingly well actually, despite all the depressive/negative stuff i write here. Oddly that stuff is mostly contained and whatever i write here is just more of an exploring my own mental pathways/thinking patterns, kinda like self-reflection.

Overall I’m functioning rather fine, health is the best it has ever been and of course that translates into being able to deal with the mental issues much more better than before too.

Work has been stable for years.

Summer might be kinda uncomfortable and bad time of the year, but not like it’s the first one. Just gotta suck that one up and wear as little clothes as possible.

Hobbies are fine as well.

Of course everything isn’t all that fine and dandy, but most issues are manageable or tolerable, if not fixable. Like food prices and general goods are slowly getting more expensive without the pay going up, but buying less snacks or “usless” stuff can balance it out.