please dont be too personal to yourself
but mine is that i began to dislike big tech and corporate social media
My desire to understand what happened during my upbringing in a heavily religious envrionment.
It engaged me for a desire to understand, not just science, but people, anything was an escape from this dogma.
I’m really enjoying the science side.
But I realise I have major untreated Trauma and I’m scared of dealing with it. It’s my “Elephant in the room”.
But I thrive off it, it’s like an energy core within me, like this ANTICORE.
Great introspective question causing me to reflect, but an answer I’ll respectfully reserve for myself.
Wow that’s mature of you.
Big hugs
A healthy combination of stubborn tenacity and pathetic laziness really.
Shit
Found computers very interesting. Broke them. Watched how to fix them. Broke them again. Fixed them myself. Rinse and repeat.
My PC can be considered a veteran after surviving so many crashes caused by overclocks and my shitty mobo that supports my CPU with a tiny asterisk…
(B550M-HDV and 5800x if you want to check)
Disliking big tech and corporate social media isn’t a personality… that’s not you. That’s just shit you don’t like. There are tons of people that are nothing like you that dislike the same shit.
16 years of child abuse 🤪
Abuse
Lol, here’s me spending 15 mins composing myself and you just straight up said it.
Props to you stringere.
This is what I said:
"My desire to understand what happened during my upbringing in a heavily religious envrionment.
It engaged me for a desire to understand, not just science, but people, anything was an escape from this dogma.
I’m really enjoying the science side.
But I realise I have major untreated Trauma and I’m scared of dealing with it. It’s my “Elephant in the room”.
But I thrive off it, it’s like an energy core within me, like this ANTICORE."
You said it a lot more eloquently and provided more context, though, and I appreciate that.
My upbringing and events that happened during childhood really led me to a parh of compassion and gave me a drive for self reflection amd betterment. Seeing ignorance and blind faith cause so much pain and suffering really made me want to make things better in the world. I hope I’ve done so in my little corner of it.
Loving parents and growing up in a small town, a 10 year failed marriage that resulted in 3 kids I love to the moon of which 2 of them are on the spectrum. Many failed relationships.
I’m proud of the man I’ve become at 49 years old.
Probably undiagnosed mental illness. I spent 30+ years as a round peg trying to fit in a square hole, until I realized one day that the way I like to be is fine and I should enjoy an existence that fits me.
We are all made of stardust.
"We are a way for the universe to know itself "
it’s hard to tell whether it’s autism or severe childhood social neglect. I think it’s both.
Uhhh I came here to post these exact two elements and yours was the top reply. Crazy.
Education, martial arts training, books, and video games.
I jerk off and smoke weed way to much
My dad sketched while I was a kid and I liked how it looked so I tried to copy it. Ever since then, I’ve been drawing and I love it
Trauma 🙂
