seconding what you’re hearing that questioning is good. It’s easy to see an AMAB man-identifying person expressing discontent with masculinity and immediately start the “TRANSGIRL ” posting, and a lot of folks do. I will say that what you’re thinking are very common thoughts that shortly pre-transition folks have a lot, but that said, your gender journey, should you decide to have one, is yours, and while you should lean into what you hear from your peers, you do you. If you think there’s a chance you might be transfem or otherwise gender non-conforming, I’d recommend digging around here https://genderdysphoria.fyi/ (long) and this https://medium.com/@cassielabelle/gender-dysphoria-isnt-what-you-think-6fdc7ae3ac85 (short), and seeing if anything resonates with you, but bear in mind that there is absolutely nothing universal here and lots of the experiences are things that cis people can feel too.

At the end of the day, this reply gets it right - you can try things out and you’ll be all the stronger for it. I never played as girl characters, but here I am, several months into E and at transfem levels, but at the same time I’m going to the gym and curling/benching and keeping stubble on my face - there’s no right answer and there’s no right process besides taking everything a la carte and embracing things that bring you joy while setting free things that don’t.