I would like to add a description (details), but it would be a very long text.
In short: I have depression, multiple chronic illnesses, C-PTSD, ADHD (btw, I could treat it with Adderall/Adderall XL, but there all drugs are banned, even for medical purposes), no money to rent on my own, poor physical and mental health, some basic things I don’t have money for, I don’t have a computer and it seems that my laptop will soon broken…
I can’t go to a psychologist because… the quality of education and medicine in this country is terrible, and it’s dangerous to say “everything” here, my mother recently worked, but now she’s left without work and starts doing some kind of crap, she was the one who brought in the income until this time; she feeds me fast food. In this country everyone doesn’t give a sh*t about each other, I am surrounded by “broken” people, this is a country full of cynics, sociopaths, and narcissists (consider mentally ill… and genetically defective, apparently).
Like this… I am spoiled, my life and my future are spoiled.
I’ve read the post and guessed the country right. Hello, fellow inmate. Sorry you share this faith.
Coding is a good investment in the future, you can read most sources on it too, so you are set. But that takes a lot of resilence to keep on going. I have many troubles with that, and I’m not well in the head too.
There are many little factories and businesses around that hire with a little to no experience and pay you hard cash. I’d consider that in order to fall from the radar. No medical bonuses but like they are worth it. It would occupy you and bring you a starting budget.
After getting some trust in yourself, you can try asking around other places. Shops are good too and they are constantly hiring. People also work in apps, but I’ve not heard anyone getting it big on them.
Freelance is another way, but you need skills. Writing works for others, doing arts on demand, checking items on e-shops, whatever. These pay peanuts, but generally easy to start if your hands know the tools.
If anything, get some way to distract youself would worth it too. People (the cooler ones), media, charities, hobbies. They are what keeps me going in spite of anxiety.
Also, some psychotherapists seem to work and be open, but you need locals who used them tell which ones since that’s a total hit-and-miss. Investigating VK groups can be a start. Expect it to be a private and paid one though. And more chances in big cities, obviously.
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This is probably the best advice here. I’m rooting for you guys. Stay safe and do what you got to do.
VK is another FSB’s social media lol
Yes, and Telegram too. But there you can probably find a more relaxed market for local rent and psychologists with proofs. Avito, others, are filled with real businesses pretending to be individuals, and is sure to share information to services too. I don’t think you can get any such service without either leaking a bit of your data or knowing the server personally through a couple of handshakes.