Better_with_Gender [pup/pup's, she/her]

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Cake day: 2025年10月10日

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    I feel uncomfortable not knowing what to call myself, I didn’t ever relate to being a man but not really with being a woman either. I feel stuck in-between them but don’t relate to Non-Binary either. My gender while not something I thought about a lot when I was a child, looking back I felt possibly gender-less and the confusion of ‘oh hey actually there is a big difference between boys and girls, stay on your side’ makes figuring out my gender now very frustrating. Doesn’t help I dress mostly masculine and so get seen as a guy when I’m not, I did dress in an alternative feminine style wearing only skirts, even seen as a girl, though haven’t in ages.




  • CW dysphoria

    My gender feels like a mess right now. I’m definitely not a guy but feel awkward being called or calling myself a girl. It feels comfortable to be referred to with she/her pronouns but I can’t really see myself as a woman. Now that I’ve accepted myself as trans I’ve started to look back at who I was previously, and how obviously trans younger me was. A lot of my memories are now trans-coded and that gives context for my past, but also brings more questions of my identity as a whole.

    trans-coding in media

    Started watching Evangelion this month for the first time. Leaving thoughts on the show for another time, Shinji felt really trans-coded to me, mainly because some of his behaviour was very trans and what I did when I was younger. I couldn’t really relate to guys and kinda inherited behaviour from girls, something I noticed Shinji do. I haven’t finished the show so I’m leaving any analysis for afterwards but I did see something about Shinji being originally written as a girl.




  • I thought that might be that why the series was shorter, but when I finished the show it didn’t really feel like there could be more to it other than possible arcs developing the other characters. I think the show was fine as it was pacing wise, I don’t think there could be another 13 episodes without it ending up as filler. The show feels that its come to the ending arc once Otonoshi figured out who he was and delaying that would have conflicted with exploring other characters.

    I do agree the show didn’t age that well. Some of the comedy and comments stick out badly now but the general premise of the show is still worth seeing now.

    I did not know that Jun Maeda made Charlotte as well, I added that show to my watchlist ages ago but haven’t seen it.











  • Manga

    I got distracted from Dorohedoro and haven’t progressed from the 3rd book. Hopefully this month I can get through more.

    I started reading the Ghost in the Shell Manga and its very silly but good. When there are serious scenes its honestly has more of an impact, probably because I can focus on the page and analyse whats happening. I may try to read a chapter alongside a book of Dorohedoro this month.

    Anime

    I watched and completed Angel Beats along with its special episodes. Its an anime I tried watching many years ago but couldn’t complete. I’m glad I finally have as it was worth finishing. It was a very bittersweet ending but the following OVAs were very silly so it didn’t end up as sad.

    The Soundtrack is very, very good and I found my old playlist that I downloaded. Still a good listen to, though some of the songs in the playlist I didn’t hear in the show. I remember some rumour that the show was originally supposed to be 26 episodes but cut down to 13 against the interests of the director or writer. Looking again I have no idea where I saw that as most information says it was always written to be 13 episodes.

    Blorps

    Stalin has continued to show the Berserk shows and I’m very much enjoying the universe. The Memorial Season of the original 1997 series was a bit too fast paced for me mainly as it skipped a few of the early episodes of that original series. Being a CGI anime the animation was serviceable but worse that the original. But the series did tie up its ending and sets up for the following arc, unlike the original.

    Now we are continuing with the 2016 Season that follows on from the Golden Age Arc previously shown. The animation is similar quality to the Memorial Season. Guts in this series feels extremely different to all the other characters in this show, the only way I can describe it is that the rest of the cast are from a 2010s anime while Guts is still from 1997.

    Garg showed Blue Submarine No 6 a 4 part OVA. It was an decent watch with a combination of CGI and 2d animation but the CGI is really dated.

    Others

    An animation not an anime, I watch the Soviet Versions of Alice in Wonderland and Alice through the Looking Glass. They were a really good watch with very smooth animation and an amazing art style. Also a good soundtrack in both.