Hi everybody!

no big post this week, down with cis

since multiple people recognized it, it’s not officially OTD Appreciation Week!

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I hope everybody has a lovely week!

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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    5·
    3 days ago

    HELLO THIS IS THE MEGA SIGN UP POST/LIST POST

    if you have a preferred week please tell me

    sodium_nitride* (5-11 - 5/17)
peanutbuttercupola* (5/18 - 5/24)
Shaleesh* (5/25 - 5/31)
GayTuckerCarlson* (6/1 - 6/7)
SwitchyandWitchy* (6/8 - 6/14)
Alisu* (6/15 - 6/21)

    ​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

  • sodium_nitride [she/her, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
    1·
    18 minutes ago

    Sorry I didn’t read the comments past few days. Don’t got an excuse I just didn’t :(

    cw
    health issues + suicide

    I’m still chronically sick. Everyday I wake up with pain in my body and a headache.

    The chronic sickness is a sign that my immune system is weakened due to my extremely poor health. And it’s not like I stopped feeling suicidal in the meantime.

    The illnesses are combining forces to jump my ass.

    I’m kinda just chugging along putting on a tough front. My biggest weakness is my refusal to show weakness in front of other people and aversion to getting help+rest. But part of that is also that getting rest means the bad thoughts come back.

    Getting rest for me is an uphill battle. I have to hype myself up over a few days with self-suggestion so that when I stop distracting myself the thoughts aren’t “kill yourself stupid b*tch”.

    :::

  • SickSemper [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    10·
    5 hours ago

    Mustered up the courage to read some of the trans fiction (it can’t all be history and theory ;() and fuck me. Shit is crushing, it’s really brutal to have an author put your exact thoughts on a page. It’s great to be spoken to via literature, but Christ it’s intense sometimes. Will still be reading

  • SwitchyandWitchy [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    5·
    5 hours ago

    Oh I’m gonna sleep like a baby tonight, I can feel it.

    I’m also just feeling great right now. I’ve been outside and very physically active today. I did my injection. I just showered so I feel really clean. I have freshly washed bedding on my bed. If I had somebody here to cuddle with then everything would truly be perfect. I have a big shark plush to cuddle with at least.

  • peanutbuttercupola [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    7·
    5 hours ago

    If due to recent events you need to make your vials last longer, use insulin syringes for your injections. They have very low loss to deadspace, which means less waste.

  • SickSemper [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    12·
    3 hours ago

    Got catcalled by a (presumably) lesbian today, she called me a dyke, among other things blob-no-thoughts Delightfully gender affirming, like, yes, you’re right! I think she took my surprise for offense because she came back over to apologize (still called me ma’am hehehehe)

    I haven’t tried really feminine outfits in public, but I keep being explicitly gendered as a woman when I’m trying less mixing accessories w masc clothing… much to consider

  • BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    10·
    8 hours ago

    So I kinda knew my sister was a transphobe because she has pretty shit opinions in general but I still sucks to hear her explicitly say she doesn’t like trans people

    At least none of my family joined her in that

  • RION [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    14·
    16 hours ago

    In one of my dreams last night I met a younger version of my mom in the past while I was wearing a dress. She was a restaurant hostess standing at one of their podiums/desks in front of a bunch of kids trying to get their tables settled. When she saw me she said I was beautiful and was only going to get more beautiful. I started crying and told her that her in the future didn’t seem to feel that way, but she didn’t seem to understand.

  • Arahnya [fae/faer, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
    11·
    16 hours ago

    if I were allowed to be free roam (sans capitalism) I think I would spend most of my time exploring, identifying and drawing plants, re-learning how to garden, making clothes and jewelry… and have time to make food, and create music and art & write.

    I have thought about who I would be if capitalism wasnt a thing, I would like to think those things would be my hobbies. My real job would be restoring the local ecosystem or something.

  • BountifulEggnog [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    10·
    15 hours ago

    Because I know some people only check the mega and not the wider site, opengate is shutting down permanently. idk what other domestic US vendors exist. Herahrt exists (ty offseasonprincess). Right now they’re doing a firesale, $35/vial for Enanthate. Buy some if you need some, I’m already stocked. DMs open if you need something.

  • Moss [they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    12·
    21 hours ago
    drugs, quitting weed, it's good news!

    Quitting weed has genuinely been really easy lol. This is the second time I’ve quit weed, last time I had a terrible evil strain that gave me a panic attack every time I smoked. I stayed off it for six months, then picked it up again. Had fun for a while, quickly became addicted again, then realised I wasn’t getting much out of it. The highs were shorter and less intense, and just not much fun. Weed is an expensive and unhealthy vice, so if I’m consuming I at least want to enjoy it.

    I’m loving waking up in the morning and not feeling sick. I’m loving the time I have in a day that isn’t just voided by the weed. If I want to drive anywhere, I can do it at any time of the day, because I’m sober. I don’t feel the desire to stuff my face with food that I don’t even really taste. It’s been pretty instant, the way my lifestyle has felt so much healthier.

    I had some cravings last night, but really thought about it. Getting a bit stoned didn’t appeal to me since I knew it wouldn’t last long, and getting really high didn’t appeal much to me either because I’m bored of that and it feels like a waste of time. So I just ended up playing Pokemon Showdown instead, and now I’ve woken up in a great mood.

  • sodium_nitride [she/her, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
    7·
    20 hours ago
    cw
    health

    Slowly dying through insomnia. How fun. Had 3 hours of sleep tonight. I think I’ll have to do medical intervention. But stess is the main culprit I know.