Staines [they/them]

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Cake day: July 29th, 2020

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  • We’re animals, and we behave the way we’re conditioned. You can’t really blame treatlerites when their entire culture tells them that’s how to live. More than ever before in history, products are delivered directly to peoples doors for consumption with all the pain and suffering slickly obscured. More than ever, western societies do their best to hide the worst suffering from the consumer.The solution isn’t to turn everyone into brooding vanguard communists.

    Communism is only one expression of ourselves and our experiences, not the totality of it. Finding reasons to live and love will not only keep your light alive, it will help it burn brighter.




  • Meditation while trying to fall asleep for several years. Originally this was just noting exercises to help process things my autistic little brain had maybe missed that day - as well as examining feeling that were perhaps suppressed while more lucid. Eventually the wake/sleep began blurring, and I figured out how to visualise piece by piece,. At first, it was just very basic shapes, which I could make move when tied to emotions. Then it became repeating, shifting, full-field patterns/shapes, initially monochrome, but becoming colorful over time when made to move quickly or with purpose.

    Then suddenly I wasn’t doing it manually anymore, and it got a lot stronger. It took several days for it to calibrate and tune its self into a useful, non-overwhelming sense. I assume most people learn to access that subconscious layer when young, and settle on a baseline they find acceptable to their mind? I heavy a heavy suspicion that autism and dissociative affect can be linked with aphantasia.