I’m sympathetic to many parts of the despair you shared. As for naming it as a whole:
Gnosticism? (Belief in a malevolent deity…)
Nihilism?
Fatalism?
Misanthropy?
As you said, though, “there is room for human connection even in a gulag”. Positives can be found in life. Look for the good bits. Play to your strengths. Help others when possible. Maybe look for charities or state agencies that can help you with the job-hunt? Stay healthy.












‘A “blatantly incompetent chud” and a “Kremlin asset” who plotted to “overthrow the government” on January 6, 2021.’