My job just trensferred me to suddenly being responsible for managing the blood sugar levels of a diabetic 5-year-old. Not without instruction, and I have been doing fine so far, but this is absolutely terrifying because it is so important. I think I can do this, but it is so scary. I’m experiencing whatever the opposite of alienation from your work is right now. It’s actually an amazing feeling. Still terrified though.
I have people to call if I have any questions, which I do very frequently now in the beginning. I actually have a good feeling about this, and can you imagine how great it feels having this kind of responsibility and also feeling like you can actually do it?
I know, but as soon as shit goes south you also feel it. And feel it hard. Be ready for something like that, just in case.
Luckily this is in the central part of a major city, so worst case - which is what I need to be prepared for - an ambulance is never far away. I would feel like shit if I failed like that, but it is a comfort to know.