cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/3433723

This post was inspired partly by @[email protected] , thank u.

I had her famous-unfinished novel-manuscript Otros Valles on my to-read list since I knew it was a thing, (maybe five years ago) but only when I went to look for it did I realise the author had deliberately wiped her presence from everywhere, basically.

Back then I could only find a couple of her essays knocking around pirate sites, nothing more. Coincidentally they are here and here, with Mutual Aid Printing not being listed on her Goodreads page or anything like that.

I guess the question I have is whether or not making a post like this is a bad thing to do? If you read Mutual Aid Printing, the author’s intent of wiping herself from the general record as a sort of form of protest is very clear. So I’ve never really known how cool or uncool it is to even talk about her work. Should I literally not read her stuff, or is the broad statement more the point, and whatever you find is whatever you find? I guess it’s kind of semantics, but there’s a twinge in my brain that says yapping loudly about Berrout’s work may be a foot-in-mouth move.

The other thing, which Berrout also discusses in both linked essays, is that the writers’ communities/interlinked social webs/who fucking knows, queer artist’s collectives she ran in were often obnoxiously white. I think Ryka Aoki is the only published transfem poc I can think of? Binnie, Peters, Felker-Martin, so on… Please inform me if I’ve missed anything, I’m not a full historian, simply a dumbass.

So aside from the fact that Berrout represents a rare voice in the space, I like how Otros Valles contrasts and almost critiques Nevada. It has none of the dejected, self-deprecating artifice. I dunno if I’m fit to talk about it but it keeps biting at my mind, and I’m not really sure if I should yap. Thoughts? Opinions? Criticisms? Call me cringe? ✨