How do I even human? I don’t get it. Ugh, people are scary. ohnoes

Why is this in the dredge? Because I’m dunking myself.

  • WhatDoYouMeanPodcast [comrade/them]@hexbear.net
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    12 days ago

    Most famous hexbear user laments their inability to socialize. Never in my fucking life have I ever felt like I integrated socially into an online community like I see others do. That shit eats me up inside.

    I bet you’re in the wrong crowd. Yesterday I met someone for the first time. As we played Mario Party together I started yelling over a crowd of people to negotiate that they shouldn’t steal coins from me despite the fact that I’m in first (they listened and stole from the person I was targeting keikaku ). If I’m at a toilet paper USA get together you think I’m doing that shit?? I’d be in the corner losing my religion.

    I also have a lot more fun doing some things than others and have better days than others. If you catch me doing BJJ on a Saturday afternoon I’ll make you laugh and think and learn and then laugh again. If you catch me at a loud concert you’ll see me sitting down with a scowl wishing I could talk to someone but I’m so lonely and what the fuck am I doing with my life (I had my friends on either side of me)? Won’t someone just touch me I’m such a pariah (I get physical contact for no less than 4 hours a week in grappling)? I’m so bad at meeting strangers, this is humiliating (I make a substantial portion of my income talking to, giving advice to, and making relationships with strangers).

    I talk about my own experiences to say that, if you’re anything like me, and I think you are cause I see your ass on c/badposting too, then I think it should be less about “what am I doing wrong?” and more about “what is this environment not giving me?” You don’t call a flower shitty when it doesn’t flourish, you see whether it needs more water or something.