No job prospects. The work I do to support myself is come and go, and im probably gonna miss rent again. The older I get, the less friends it seems I have. None of my hobbies/passions excite me right now and just feel like a pain in the dick when I think about doing them. Every day is the same goddamn routine unless I go stay at my partners place.
It’s cold and I hate going out in the cold, so that just compounds stuff further. Everything is dead outside. I’m tired, im always so tired. I can never get enough sleep no matter how much I actually get.
Feels like I’m just existing and I hate it.
I’m not hanging in there, I’ve just given up. There’s really no way things are getting better short of a miracle so I’m just accepting it and trying to enjoy what I can. I’ll be a sad bum working in retail and rent a basement from my dad forever. But it’s okay I got booze and video games.