Context: A young adult tells his mother that he’s depressed and that life is meaningless and that he wants to die (suicide is not directly mentioned but implied). Then the mother proceeds to express “regretting giving birth to you” directly to that young adult.
(That young adult is me)
Why no social connections? Best thing to do is to externally connect and have things outside the confines of your current unhappiness.
Sometimes social connections are hard to figure out, especially if you don’t have experience making connections or positive examples to follow.
I suggested visiting the local library and seeing if there’s any meetups. Do you have other suggestions?