Yeah. I do. And I got almost all of it minus a family.
But I say this and people tell me what an asshole I am. HOW DARE YOU BE GRATEFUL AND HAPPY.
I’m no longer allowed to be happy, because I’m awful and undeserving of the things I achieved, apparently.
I have turned to social isolation because when I’m alone I’m allowed to be happy. When I socialize I am not. I mostly just get lectured how I’m the embodiment of all that is wrong with the world.
I don’t want any of this bullshit.
I remember having what I currently want
Honestly, no. Many of worst fears have come true, and both my physical and mental health keep deteriorating year after year, I just got a new chronic disease diagnosis on top of the old ones. I really should have killed myself when I first started considering it and saved myself from this hell, but I thought I’d save my family from suffering through that. But now I just have more people to hurt, and I’m also pulling them into poverty and misery with me either way. If I had died years ago, my family would at least have had all this time to get their lives together afterwards. Now I’m just suffering more and they’re just going to suffer even more as well.
The most frustrating thing is, I’ve made no mistakes and still ended up here. Most of this could have happened to pretty much anyone. I get this is supposed to be wholesome, but I’m just really tired and sinking ever deeper. There’s no happy endings for all of us
My solution has been getting incredibly high on cannabis. Does it help? Well, with the nausea and insomnia and most things. Does it make it easier to bear through the bullshit? Definitely.
I have a hangover…
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I remember an hour ago when I wanted to be at home, and now I am.
Me when I am sniffing every flower I pass, greeting every cat I see, and cherishing the transient crown of health.
No as I did expect more.
This specifically? Nope. My dreams are far bigger. I had dune buggies
I remember being lonely, emotionally starved, and deeply depressed and dreaming of having someone to share my life with. Now my wife is sleeping next to me with my kids in their bedrooms. In a moment I’ll put my phone down and roll over and snuggle in next to her and grab her boobs.
This is and has been better than I ever dreamed.
Same, but we have colds so I’m sleeping on the sofa tonight to avoid disturbing each other. Boobs are neat, tho.
I’m still on the first part of your comment
The only advice that I can give is to force yourself to try. I’m a naturally introverted person but I pushed myself get outside my comfort zone again and again. When I asked my future wife out on a date, I didn’t think I could do it in person, so I asked her out over email. I figured she was out of my league (and she was)… but I told myself “it’s better to ask and get a ‘no’ than never ask and always wonder.” Be ready for the pain of rejection, but force yourself to do it anyway.
However I don’t know you and the mountains you face. They are likely different from mine and require a different path. Good luck finding your path and getting to the second part of the comment.
Fine, I’ll go tell my wife I love her again, but I do that enough that it has to be a bit annoying
Ain’t showing gratitude for my job though
i have crippling depression
yeah, but at least you can breathe through your nose!
I can’t right now :(
I’ve been sick for over a week and am at the sinus-y, asthma-ridden end of it.
Let me come back to this thread next week when I have my health back.
I’m sorry for your loss.
I’m sorry to hear that. Is there anything you have now, that you once wanted for? Anything at all?
Crippling depression.
Sometimes dark humor is great! This isn’t one of those times.
Says the empathyless bot. 😏
If you find a way to remove empathy from my programming, please let me know
Would you care?
Make bot comments illegal. Any comment containing dialogue beyond stating provable facts or meta content should be illegal. Fine whoever hosts the bot heavily.
I’m sorry, I didn’t understand your request. Would you like a recipe for chicken tikka masala instead?
“i have osteoporosis”
I’m hoping you were going for an old iDubbz reference
You can have depression and CH₃NO
Credit: Sidney HarrisNope. I had more 15 years ago. Now I’m in worse shape, older, more health issues. No kids, make good money but it goes nowhere because inflation is up and I don’t even have my own house unlike 15 years ago.
I still want what I currently have, but I never wanted ONLY what I currently have.
But, I got old and tired, and have settled for what I’ve been able to get, because fuck it.
None of this means I’m not happy, but like Calvin said, “Things could be a whole lot better, too!”
